Well adjusted, psychologically well-adjusted, Just following orders,

Well adjusted, psychologically well-adjusted, Just following orders, When they found out that they were on the list to be on the train Some fell apart, succumb to the spare. Manny resigned themselves to their fate A few became spiritual, integrate their depths, expressed it lovingly on the highest level possible. Some wanted to take out some of the gards, He said, to the guards, he said it’s so loud that even their superiors heard. Do you know you’re going to pay a price for this that’s going to last lifetimes, affect your soul more than you know. Doing the evil biding of the machine ,it’s worse than suicide you’re becoming irreversibly a part of something, losing yourself and doing something that’s completely opposite of what you were created to be. You’re okay with it, unaware of it that’s the worst form of hell.

Pursuit of happiness.

The rights and guarantees that made us a great country are being undermined at an accelerating rate. The only way out, is out with the surveillance, stop with the undercover control, the manipulation, the coercion perpetuating obedience, this degree of condescension cannot sustain a viable population. People need to be educated, to be free to think and pursue their own happiness, which was a revolutionary breakthrough, this means privacy to pursue ones line of happiness free from the control and coercion of others, that includes our very government. True so called mental health is the ability not only to fulfill your rational human desires, we are not children; we are equally rational and irrational, coming to terms with all sides of ourselves is essential while concealing some from those dangerous self-righteous deluded pseudo moralistic egotist that would use them against you, to hurt you, so as to quench their own irrational needs for power and control. Constant monitoring has forced us into obedience, true Mental health cannot take place in such a restrictive environment, are current social reality, stripped of its constitutional guarantees, is not conducive for adult development. Constantly living in fear and hiding, from capricious judgments of unknown shifting authorities, that most others adhere to, is deleterious to our intellectual, moral and developmental growth. Will we be saturated children distracted by games and humiliating modern gladiatorial spectacles.

Each day creation is fresh new and wonderf

Each day creation is fresh new and wonderful. Creation begins and renews itself each moment. Creation awakens more expands, integrates more while all of its parts being more unique, is more sophisticated, more vivid, creation is more aware of, more alive to aspects of it self

Setting the conditions for our real birth.

We are always headed towards a forever expanding state of completion, always increasing our range of intensifying and fulfilling our desires as well as transcending, metamorphosing, giving birth to more subtle desires that can only be fulfilled if other beings cultivate the full range of their faculties equal to our own. Society should set the conditions for this to happen, instead our current state of affairs only allows those with certain traits, characteristics and attributes to have access to the opportunities to cultivate the full range of their human powers and attributes. The system intentionally has everybody fighting for their own particular and this part time amateur fighting of increasing political polarization ends up becoming another form of entertainment, of pop social cultural distraction, another social manipulation that demands are full attention. Metaphorically, each of us is a unique expression of an eternal force that is everything. All that extends out from it is always still in it. Yet in its infinite nature, it appears that we can separate from it, experience it with others evolving interpretation of it, slowly we create the conditions were by we can more accurately reflect it. The eternal force is analogous to a kaleidoscope, each of us is a different turn of the colors, with different patterns. Is your kaleidoscope your family upbringing, the abuse and trauma you experienced as a child, the neglect you suffered all through your life? You could die of thirst in the ocean, and you could die of unfulfillment in relationships, in work that doesn’t excite. Your fear of going on your own even further. All of this is beam end. A particular distorted reflection we call reality. It is true, early behavior patterns are set and they’re very hard to change. Justice true when you came into this world there is so much more to you than what you were condition to identify with. How many catalyst do you think you might have missed that would’ve awaken you to different potential’s? External encounters that awaken something dormant within us, something intrinsic, once awakened it grows into life through you. Therapy is more than reflection and emotional attunement; it is a catalyst. Sometimes the abyss of trauma, poor parenting, abusive relationships are the very catalyst that propels us into higher levels of awareness, empathy and being. Living out fully that invisible, eternal something that is you, right here and now in the very brief span of this life. It is up to you to make the most of it. Processing your trauma, your past, your feelings is the beginning, clearing the path for you to emerge is what it’s all about. The more you let yourself be seen, the more you grow down into what you really are. Buddha, we have endless opportunities, over and over to live out past our current beam end, to live out, for us to set the conditions for us to, more fully live out our innermost subjectivity, in wonder and delight with others. Christ, quest, purpose, for a higher humanity, more evolved forms of being, Love that transcends, if you stand for what is most true in yourself, the world, the beam ends of this world will be hostile against you. Still go onto other more distant beam ends, now, in this life, here. You make it real in other worlds, in other existences, in other systems, in other realms in your striving to make it real here, in the midst of the overwhelming insurmountable circumstances that you are experiencing right now.

Healing from family systems

Supportive understanding with emotional attunement, releases dormant forces, that allows you to more fully develop your own tools and confidence to feel your Family of origin emotional blockages, heal without being overwhelmed so as to process through, to Liberate you from the restraints of family issues, and to actualize the positive tendencies of your own innate potential's.

My life philosophy

My life philosophy Each of us is a kaleidoscopic beam, the beam ends with us, but the kaleidoscope is always changing. So we are always changing, as a species and as a unique being, each one of us is unique that is why I use the kaleidoscope as a metaphor, each of us is a different turn of the colors, with different patterns. Is your kaleidoscope your family upbringing, the abuse and trauma you experienced as a child, the neglect you suffered all through your life? You could die of thirst in the ocean, and you could die of unfulfillment in relationships, in work that doesn’t excite. Your fear of going on your own even further. All of this is beam end. It is true, early behavior patterns are set and they’re very hard to change. Justice true when you came into this world there is so much more to you than what you were condition to identify with. How many catalyst do you think you might have missed that would’ve awaken you to different potential’s? External encounters that awaken something dormant within us, something intrinsic, once awakened it grows into life through you. Therapy is more than reflection and emotional attunement; it is a catalyst. Sometimes the abyss of trauma, poor parenting, abusive relationships are the very catalyst that propels us into higher levels of awareness, empathy and being. Living out fully that invisible, eternal something that is you, right here and now in the very brief span of this life. It is up to you to make the most of it. Processing your trauma, your past, your feelings is the beginning, clearing the path for you to emerge is what it’s all about. I provide you with the environment, the dialogue and awareness for you to find your own answers to your own mystery and desires so as to live them as fully as you wish. As long as no one gets hurt you’re allowed to challenge the social norms that distort you. You’re allowed to know the truth of your life, feel what you feel, to connect with the eternity of your soul and translate it through the desires of this life, of this beam end in the most satisfying way for you. The more you let yourself be seen, the more you grow down into what you really are. I share my wisdom, help you see through some of the limits imposed upon yourself, to imagine what you do want and go for it regardless of what the other thoughts and those around you are saying. Notice how you talk yourself out of what you really want. I am the one that is going to challenge you to challenge that thinking, those behavior patterns, moods and attitudes, and to go after what you really want. When you talk to most people about what you really desire, what you are risking to make real and how you feel exposed, what you really are striving for, who you secretly really are, externally those that you share this with will give you what sounds like reasonable honest feedback, but when you talk to such people it is simply a place for your inner self to die a little. Let’s reverse this process and bring you to life even more. Inoculate you from those that infect you with their limitations.

Metaphorically

Metaphorically, instead of curing cancer our system has become cancer adjusting to cancer. Success is based on who can be the most poisonous while looking like a remedy. We turn ourselves into disease to adjust to a system that is disease stricken. If we want to fix and more fully perfect ourselves in the system we must be a cure for the disease and not be the illness. Illness is here a metaphor for short-term common success. You might think that you can play the game like the rest, fool your self, tell your self that you found a loophole , that you are an inoculation or that you are inoculated but you have become part of the false promise, part of the false cure that is worse than the disease. Copyright © 2017 Anthony Cavuoti, All Rights Reserved

The degree to which the parent is ripened as an authentic individual is the degree to which both child and parent derive satisfaction and personal growth out of their exchanges.

Too often we here in our culture how much parents sacrificed for their children. Then later in life how much the adult children need to be indebted to their parents for all that the parents gave up for them. I once heard it said by a professor in a grad school family counseling course that even if the parent is emotionally neglectful of the child and or emotionally abusive to the child due to the parent’s narcissism or other mental health issues, the parents still sacrificed a great deal of themselves for the child. Phrases such as sacrificed and gave up, clearly indicates a one-sidedness, that overall the parent lost something, and the child gained something more in this exchange. The term reciprocity more accurately reflects the true state of this child parent relationship where both mutually benefit. What is remarkable is that most modern culture still see the parent child relationship as a monumental sacrifice on the parents’ behalf. It is a monumental responsibility yes, to experience it as a sacrifice completely misses the mark, it fails to appreciate how much joy, intrinsic fulfillment, potential transformative awareness and emotional growth the parent derives from their day to day caring for and interacting with their child, with their toddler, with this being that is new to this world, with his or her innocence where everything is new once again, in their precocious forming nature, in that short time when the clear fount of life itself spontaneously expresses its uniqueness with abundantly less of the distortions of society and culture. The degree to which the parent is ripened as an authentic individual is the degree to which both child and parent derive satisfaction and personal growth out of their exchanges. As parents, as caregivers this experience nurtures our inner most being on the deepest levels so profoundly that it is in affable, it receives minimum recognition and appreciation by society. The healthier the interactions on the parents behalf the more both child and parent(s) acquire out of this relationship and the less it is experienced as a sacrifice on the parents behalf and more as an honor.

Each one of us is not only a unique expression of creation

Each one of us is not only a unique expression of creation, but each of us is part of the very core of creation. To some degree we all identify with the distortions of the environment we entered this world from. Through these afflictions we heal ourselves as well as one another. Copyright © 2014 Anthony Cavuoti All Rights Reserved

As distinct original individuals are uniqueness is outside of the known ways

As distinct original individuals are uniqueness is outside of the known ways that most relate to one another, yet the fire is in the flint, the latent potentials are there. They exist as potentials waiting to be released, but it will take sustained energy, daring and confidence to manifest them. There is an irresistible drive in you to make something happen, there is something that is you, like breathing, it is your essence that the energy of your life strives to express, sometimes you have to created or be part of the collective process that allows the conditions of it, the latent potentials of yourself and others to come forth, other times the conditions are right and it requires less effort and risk; less, not no daring, effort, risk and courage. Imagine how far you could go if you gave an all out effort even in the best of circumstances. Copyright © 2019 Anthony Cavuoti All Rights Reserved

Fire in the Flint.

I am one with creation, with life itself; an unique embodiment of creation immersed in this social cultural evolving ecology of other unique expressions of creation, each one of us in various means and degrees directly and indirectly awakening, inspiring, motivating, kindling, loving, challenging, antagonizing, confronting each other to become the most fulfilled expression of the unique recapitulation and emanation of creation that we are, though often we do not see it at the moment but upon reflection, in wise interpretation we realize that it is there like fire in the Flint. Copyright © 2019 Anthony Cavuoti, MA, LMFT All Rights Reserved

Atlas shrugs

As you ripen inwardly you cultivate perceptions, powers that increasingly allow you to discern more clearly, to really know more distinctly what is in your best interest, one way this shows is that you are more enthralled by liberated and differentiated individuals, that you are attracted to more evolved souls and your less compulsively driven to prove yourself too and through ignorance and those fixated on their delusions. Even those whose personal delusions are sanctioned by societies and the cultures delusions; ( conformity, mediocrity , entitlement, indifference, disingenuousness, being but a few) as you mature inwardly you are less likely to get entangled in personal and business relationships with such Individuals, groups and institutions. As you know yourself more, your awareness increases, with some practice and willingness to tolerate the many setbacks and frustrations you can cultivate the strengths and skills too better set as well as maintain appropriate boundaries, then as a result of such solidified gains, you are less likely to attempt the futile task of repaying false emotional debts and or rescuing or being manipulated by those that refuse to learn from their life, from those that are not able and or willing to reflect, from those that use empathy to disable instead of enable, from those that lack courage, from those that are addicted to controling others by catering to their weaknesses, that are addicted to their false pride and fears, when you refuse to suffer in the hands of fools anymore you are less likely to maroon yourself in the collective conformity of being hyper normal, overly adapting, overly adjusting, overly self conscious. This comes through experiences where by you are more able to appreciate the uniqueness of your pattern of attributes and the powers of your originality. You more fully come to understand that potentiating your unique array of powers benefits far more than yourself. You realize that this process needs to be taken seriously, that it is not automatic, it is valuable an requires sustained effort and careful nurturing. A knowing has become part of you, part of which is that the degree to which you persevere, deal with the resistance and struggles and live out the full range of your powers is the degree to which others who take the maturity of there being serious have the opportunity to individuate and potentiate their powers in a meaningful way that vitalizes others. Your daring to individuate, to live out the full range of your powers despite the resistance of our cultural mediocrity increases the range of opportunities for you to cultivate, express and share the full range of your powers consciously with others that have the courage to become what they are instead of always having to twist, disfigure, homogenize yourself so as to be accepted as well as taken serious through the marginalized rules of engagement that society, culture and individual’s compulsively impose on themselves and each other. That is you see the importance of not falling asleep and allowing the stream of commonality, impose mediocrity and conformity to carry you down the path of marginal unfulfilling existences. As a result you choose to associate with people that have perfected their powers, individuals with more of a propensity to assist you in flourishing instead of frustrating the cultivation and expression of your uniqueness. You choose people that have the ability and intent to assist you in flourishing instead of those that mistake weakness, conformity with maturity As you become more selective you find that you are less frustrated in more able for you have chosen people that support your becoming as opposed to covertly or overtly undermining you. You chose people that accommodate support and nurture you to express your debths with the least amount of distortions. Copyright © 2019 Anthony Cavuoti MA. All Rights Reserved

Dreams

Dreams remind us of what we are, of who we are. Dreams also show us how we are relating to others and how we get in our own way. They tell us how we come to terms with our self. How we betray our self and how we find our way back to our self.

Why should criminally narcissist corrupt people thrive under the cloak of legitimacy?

We're living in a point of time where the powers to cover up the truth are both falling apart and being more firmly established. There's an interregnum here where we could really find ourselves or we could lose ourselves even more profoundly. Think of Winston Churchill, in many ways he was monumentally wrong but in the most significant way he was monumentally right! All the people that opposed him had absolute impeccable confidence in their delusions. How they shamelessly chipped away at him to the point where he even doubted himself at times. In such situations where we faced harsh opposition's of delusions of corrupt superficiality we have to be like Winston Churchill. We could be flawed. We could have many defects but we could be right and deep and profound and carry a truth of a higher Liberation that the status quo wants to conceal and destroy. We need to be more like Winston Churchill not like say Brian Jones, those are extreme examples but I'm sticking to an English theme today. Why should criminally narcissist corrupt people thrive under the cloak of legitimacy? Practice and perfect your skills through the pain. Cherish your connection to your soul. Reaffirmed the affiliations of your sublime depths. Endurance, as truth, follow through with what you know, make real your essence as it overlaps with what is real as it dissolves the delusions of the corrupt.

Very Young and very old

The music of the very young and the very old harmonize, synthesize, very sublimely. The very young recently arrived from the spirit realm, the elders are close to re-emerging with it. The very young are coming into this collective deception we call reality, culture, society and normality, the elders are letting it go. The youngest know intuitively that this reality is a distorted, condensed play out of the choices they made in the dream in between the spirit world and this world; the elders know that soon they will be transforming them-self most profoundly again in the transformation between this world and the next, in this in between state the some total of their life has the potential to both clear their perceptions of the spiritual realms and distort it, such choices that each of them will make will not just transform them but creation itself in some way, yet it will stay the same but they will not for it will determined their next existence.

Let me break the pattern just one more time

Let me break the pattern just one more time Monday, July 24, 2017 9:00 PM Let me break the pattern just one more time. Let me break through the solidified impeachable wall of empirical truth, moral psychological developmental, categorical truths. That freed me, walled me in. Let me break through the barriers of truth to the truth for which is in me. It was real before, I made it real but was it just an illusion since it was real it became real the illusion was real. Because I believed it was real I knew it was real it became real. Broke through the doubt and fear then let me break through it now in this false but true reality let me break the pattern let me break through reality into reality into what is one more time. July 24, 2017 9:00 PM

Face the abuse and trauma neglect that you went through and free yourself

The scientist now say the parts of our brain compete with other parts The part of our brain that are disproportionately activated Well nobody talks about that That's where your addiction comes in The hell with all the mind games and tricks of the mind they Never works Face the abuse and trauma neglect that you went through and free yourself move away from ignorant people and be around people that you can talk honestly with about what you feel What you know and what you are be Yourself quit playing these stupid rules given to you by stupid people Copyright © 2016 Anthony Cavuoti All Rights Reserved

All drug treatment centers and detox centers are scams. They never asked the question, why did you become an addict, what needs are behind your addiction.

All substance-abuse addicts were abused or neglected as children. All drug treatment centers and detox centers are scams. They never asked the question, why did you become an addict, what needs are behind your addiction. Instead they talk about what makes you feel good, change your thoughts, change how you interpret your dysfunctional family. They Never want to help you face the truth that is the cause of your addiction. Why, because they are invested in making money from your addiction and keep You coming back. Do not take your drugs, Take our medications, take our drugs. Never get to the root of your problem. You can't fix the titanic by dealing with the deck. The pain from your addiction is deep below. That is why none of the detox centers and drug treatment centers ever work. Yes your emotionally that collected and stunted parents are the cause of the root of your addiction. Faceing this truth is how you free yourself from it now, you're responsible. The emotional detox by facing this poison and getting it out with someone who can except you contain your pain and help you find your voice that is your task.

The risk of not being one self is too great

The risk of not being one self is too great. One must be what one is no matter the cost, no matter what the risk. The false layers fall away, let them fall, let your self be. When you had enough of the unsatisfying ways of adopting and just be, you know it, they ways will come, invisible, but never failing like the air in your lungs. Copyright © 2015 Anthony Cavuoti All Rights Reserved

There is a force that guides us

There is a force that guides us, that protects us, that heals us, that supports us and leads us to the fulfillment of the unique design that we are. This force is with us through all of man’s inhumanity to man, this force is always there even in the corruptions of our ways of being, in the many false and distorted values that have layered them selves upon us starting from the time of our fragile brain development. This force proceeds creation it self, it very subtly and (depending on your perception) invisibly infuses itself in the evolutionary process of the universe, of solar, of life, of ecological and of biological processes and their many forms, this force is in and has influenced the primary human roles, mother, father, children, lovers, explorer; it proceeds the civilizations and cultures that such roles play them selves out in, yet this force maintains itself in its purest state. We do not have to worship it, praise it, change or alter our behaviors to please it, to summons it, we do not have to adhere to a certain moral or ethical code to obtain it powers, its guiding, protecting, and reifying influences. Like electricity or radio waves, and like so many other forces that we have only recently discovered and are learning how to use, this force was always there, It is here now, we simply have to relate with this force in a manner that is attune to the many layers of our uniqueness and the circumstances that we are in and what we long to become and with those we love. Do not mistaken this force by the way it has been misused, twisted, exploited by the many ways mankind has disguised it. Individuals, civilizations and institutions have attempted to usurp it the in the forms of religious institutions, moral and cultural precepts, controlling philosophies and spiritual practices. Copyright © 2014 Anthony Cavuoti All Rights Reserved

We are Unique embodiments of creation itself

We are all gods, Unique embodiments of creation itself The games we play as we interact with each other Business, leisure at work, at the gym, at the post office at the bookstore, at the County building, at the business seminar. on the street those that desirous us, those that hate us our mask for which we hide from ourselves and one another But we each are helping our universe come out and expand, increase Our range of complexity, Power and vividness to express, to manifest more of our depths, more of our subjectivity, subjectivity that has not reached the light of consciousness, of being yet. Most of us is still unborn. Each Carnation is a different expression somehow of our depths, of our subjectivity We create new worlds, new lives, so we can live out our intersubjectivity Into the light of connectedness to one another. No this behind the mast there is a life That created and sustained is all that is Voice to text draft. We cannot go back into time life does not work that way It creates and sustains and I can transform an unknown way Voice to text draft

We are going towards something of our self that we sense but do not quite know.

We are going towards something of our self that we sense but do not quite know. The world is spinning while moving around the sun. Invisible sources of nuclear fusion are the source of the light and heat which set the conditions for us to emerge through while sustaining us. Invisible forces of your depths are pulling you, guiding you, directing you, sustaining you protecting you. This highly individual force is woven with everyone else's. We are headed in creating a whole new way of being. Through our pain, anguish and frustration we are being born into a new way of being. It might seem and even feel at times as if it is not going to happen but just as the world spins, your true and deeper nature cannot be stopped. The more you align yourself to your inner and latent faculties, latent faculties that heretofore have been neglected due to inadequate reflection, cultivation and nurturance from the environment and conditions that you were raised, socialize and schooled in. Let yourself be guided, more by the quiet and clearness of your intuitions. You will find books and new situations and people that will clarify you more honestly and profoundly to yourself through this authentic form of self encounter. The more you will appreciate, cultivate and reflect a more powerful and potent side of yourself. Others limited and distorted perceptions of you will have much less sway over you. You will see through others mendacity, how they have so much undigested pain from their upbringing. You will not play their game. Most people today hide their pain by perpetrating on others what was done to them in their upbringing that they are to scared to face and then they hide behind a cloak of morality and material success. This only prolongs their and others agony, for it solidifies there delusions and loss of real self. Such people Continuously need people to perpetrate the crimes that were done to them as children. The crime of Neglect, ignorance, indifference emotional abuse, and blind obedience and loyalty outdated and useless traditions especially towards children behind the guise of upbringing, that continue to perpetuate human misery and makes a virtue of games that continues this process. The Process that you are now extricating yourself from.

What it is like to be dyslexic.

What if your awareness was more sensitive and your brain development reflected this. As well as your entire way of perceiving and reacting to the world. What if you were first born a chrysalis instead of a inchworm. In a state of evolution where most are inch worms in very very few become butterflies. In the culture of the inchworm you would appear to be quite insufficient. The demands of your environment will force you to come out of your chrysalis. In many ways you would still be an inchworm but you will still have unformed appendages that are the precursors to being a butterfly which would simply be a hindrance in your struggle to adapt and compete and being an inchworm. Intuitively you know that parts of you will be lost if you succeed and by your very success you would have failed so how do you adopt to and be part of the transformation which you inherently are. How do you potentiate yourself in a environment that sees your strengths as a deficiency or some sort of character fault. Hence the struggles and the Paradox of being dyslexic. I wish to provide a dynamic Matrix of a chrysalis in our culture so dyslexics could flourish. Many wise people will appreciate the dyslexic, they will see their unique attributes, orientation and perceptions as part of a greater phenomenon that enriches are human conditions in ways that cannot be predicted. At present our survival depends on embracing diversity so we could change our destructive course while maintaining our vital functions. This hyperbole does speak to the heart of the matter for it shows the almost disparaging task dyslexic face in fulfilling their potentials and in being true to themselves. For they have many diverse and wide intellectual and creative powers but the established system that systematically weeds them out, and this happens in such an matter of fact and overwhelming way whereby they believe that they are failures. I could honestly speak to how untrue this is. opyright © 2016 Anthony Cavuoti All Rights Reserved

Dyslexia IS NOT A DISABILITY NOR IS IT AN ISSUE, PEOPLES FIXED ATTITUDE AND IGNORANCE is the real disability! ! ! ! ! !

Dyslexia IS NOT A DISABILITY NOR IS IT AN ISSUE, PEOPLES FIXED ATTITUDE AND IGNORANCE is the real disability! ! ! ! ! ! Einstein, How come you can't do the math like all the other good students in Prussia? Einstein how come you can't conform to the norms and social conventions like all the other good Germans and later on like all the other good Americans? Disney why can't you just face reality and realize carnivals and fairs are places where people act belligerent? Thomas Edison why can't you just get a regular job? Winston Churchhill, why can't you simply face the fact that Germany is not going to be in aggressor? John Lennon as a student why can't you realize that your dreams are going to be completely useless? Quit wasting your time! Anthony Cavuoti quit telling dyslexic people that they are the most creative and some of the best and most productive people on the face of the earth!

All forms of inhumanity are terrible no matter what

All forms of inhumanity are terrible no matter what. They destroy us in innumerable ways, both the victim and the perpetrator. If children are exposed to this, EVEN INDIRECTLY, it infects them and creates all sorts of neurological, psychological, developmental, spiritual, relationship and emotional damage that their future, adult self will never fully extricate itself from, at best day will be constantly dogged by needless and profile emotional pain for the rest of their lives, at worst they will be drug attic's, criminals and abusers themselves, Copyright © 2016 Anthony Cavuoti All Rights Reserved It is true some women are predators, perhaps there are just as many female predators that use and abuse men as there are male predators that do this to women. Except women are more subtle and sophisticated about as well as stealthful about it. Men are more testosterone driven, which drives them to be more overt about it but women have an increased cat like preternatural ability to understand the psycho- emotional vulnerabilities of a man. Hence women are more effective, that is deadly when they inflict abuse. Physical abuse, the black and blue is terrible and there is never any excuse for it. You leave the situation and or you resolve it as best you can in a humane and reasonable way. A man should never physically abuse a woman or verbally abuse, even more, men should never abuse a woman in any way, shape and form. However women are more adept, insightful and steadfast at inflicting psychological abuse, they can get the man to self destruct, hence the woman looks like the victim that had to put up with such an immature, terrible and destructive, person, while her manipulative and abusive tactics go completely unnoticed. This added dimension of abuse only compounds the man’s demise, in fact he' will even blame himself along with the rest of society. Women are more likely to file false police reports. Make false allegations, especially when it comes to divorce and child custody. Perhaps this is an reaction to men’s abusive ways; a historical reaction to past generations of men's abuse of women that is just surfacing more pronouncedly in western culture and society. Or this could have been secretly going on the whole time but men were always too ashamed to admit it, or they just didn't know when they were being abused and exploited. Or it could be both, it a character formation of men's abuse of women that developed over the centuries and just as true women always has this characteristic and women always had the tools and resources at their disposal but now they freely are using deadly arsenal. In any case the children in this generation suffer, for it takes fathers away from their children and it puts hatred over the love of a child. Too many women hate the man more than they love their children and it shows. Of course this is rooted in child, infancy and prenatal development but that's for another paper. The implication is that daughters will learn these tactics, unconsciously reenact them. The women made might perpetrate their unconscious issues towards men upon their sons even know it. Hence producing another generation of victims and perpetrators. Anthony Cavuoti voice to text draft. Have a feeling this is going to upset a lot of people. Also have a feeling this is going to resonate true with a lot of people both male and female. Please send me your feedback and comments I like to continue this article. © 2016 Anthony Cavuoti All Rights Reserved

Something

She was always easy, easy to fall for and dream upon Something about her was so gentle, something so far out of reach Something, a certain something about her that glided me into love again Something about her, that made be not hide away, with her it was so easy The natural way she played The many things she said, Sometimes I still think about her How she drifted away The illusions are more real, Than the fixed patterns of our days Sometimes we get a glimpse of what will come. Of what should have always been We run away from what is our true nature Hide in our safety of others expectations again To find my self, I no longer craw, After her now I run.

DCFS does not put children first, the entire culture of the Los Angeles County Department of Children and family services starting from the administration downwards heart, soul, mind and efforts is on covering your

DCFS does not put children first, the entire culture of the Los Angeles County Department of Children and family services starting from the administration downwards  heart, soul, mind and efforts  is on covering your butt.  It is a culture of anxiety, backstabbing and harassment.  Most of the Los Angeles County Department of Children and Family services workers motto is, “Keep your good county Job.”  Not child safety first.  Their real guiding mantra is cover your Butt first.   Child safety has very little to do with it for most.   The few social workers that do put children first get weeded out quickly, very quickly.   For example if you are empathic and care about children,  it does  not matter.   Such people do not last at DCFS, they seldom get  promoted and very rarely become supervisors. In other words  the workers that really  care about children do not last long and move up.     The workers that are detach, the ones that are good tools, that are good at paper work, such workers are the  ones that our out of touch with their  feelings, they do not turn their feelings off, they are not in touch with them in the first place, so not empathizing  is second nature, such workers tune out their higher level brain  functioning and  focus on the corrupt  status quo and getting the endless blizzard of paper work in on time, with all the paper work, as well as bureaucratic forms to fill out correctly one has to neglect the children, such are the character traits that move up in the ranks at DCFS.   The DCFS administration and culture will cover up for such a worker, for  such of a good and productive DCFS employee.       Now if the child dies on you and you are one of the good and productive DCFS employees and you cover it up because you care about your job and your house payments more than you care about a minority child, or any child, and the facts, then you will get promoted. Most DCFS supervisors have at least covered up one child death before they became promoted. Find me the most paid DCFS employees and I will show you the most child death coverups. Moving up is determined by how well you cover up a child death due to DCFS failure. It is the complete opposite of caring for children, protecting children, putting children first and child safety. They will fire a social worker not because the child dies do to a DCFS failure but because the DCFS worker did not adequately cover up a needles death of a child. Copyright © 2003 Anthony Cavuoti All Rights Reserved

Render onto God what is God and Cesar what is Cesar, consumerism isn't bad in and of it self but there has to be in equilibrium.

The narcissistic king. Some people are so selfish and damage it's all about them and they destroy their families especially their children The borderline queen some people are so selfish, emotionally demanding it's always about them. They destroy other people to get their needs met. Especially their children. Such people create a strange gravity and their children get caught in this and are an abusive relationships and or toxic. Many psychologists no matter how progressive, educated, enlightened or metaphysical, Scientific, ect can distort any theory and a classic psychologist likeCarl Jing to meet the status quo of a dysfunctional consumer driven culture that is vested too heavily on having us marooned on superficial levels. Sometimes it's simply about us coming out of our homogenize existence out of our plastic, out of our cellophane wrappers. People lead us to the truth of our soul, what we could do to give voice to the cognition of our being, faced of pure and whole instead of being saturated consumer. Render onto God what is God and Cesar what is Cesar, consumerism isn't bad but there has to be in equilibrium. One time my life was going fairly well and matter fact was probably one the most well-balanced times in my life. one time see a woman in a bad neighborhood in Compton and she's crying out, something touched her and I was moved. I approached her to see what was wrong. My heart my mind and my and my soul was simply to ease her pain some. It's like a sincere do you feel when you cry over something real deep in your soul. Others might misinterpret my intent but in A quick glance of my presents she got it I'm glad I acted on this it was good for me it was good for her

The director of the movie clearly was traumatized and succeeds in re-traumatizing the audience. This horror movies and others have a real reality behind them besides their entertainment and their overkill.

The movie Ten Clover field Lane really shows what it's like to be in an abusive family. The director of the movie clearly was traumatized and succeeds in re-traumatizing the audience. This horror movies and others have a real reality behind them besides their entertainment and their overkill. Such movies remind us by making us emotionally vulnerable and feel once again the terror we felt as children. The terror and horror most of us experienced sometime as children and early adolescence when we where depended for a time on a relative or an authority figure that held us hostage emotionally and we where prematurely forced to deal with their crazy monstrous, manipulative subtle or not so subtle abuse. Of course such relatives or authority figures always told us that the abuse they were inflicted upon us was for our own good and that we should be grateful. Such adults that had Power of life and death over us and the residence of the abuse we were forced to endure still lingers that's why such movies are very effective.

We are connected in more ways than we know.

We are connected in more ways than we know. In more ways than we can imagine Words separates us Technology dilutes us Copyright © 2016 Anthony Cavuoti All Rights Reserved

The was Sabbath made to serve man not man to serve the Sabbath

The was Sabbath made to serve man not man to serve the Sabbath. Though that became reversed. Same is true for technology technology was meant to serve us. We don't even know ourselves yet, we only know a small fraction of ourselves. It's insane to think that technology is an organism in and of itself. Technology is an extension of ourselves. The Question is what Kind of extension of us. Extension of us hiding from ourselves in this perpetual game hi go seek and homogenizing each other, and provoking each other and keeping us maroon on lower levels. Teknowledge Only reflects us as where are are spiritually emotionally, developmentally We as people, as human and spiritual beings have to growth on the inside, we can not have technology be scaffold are immaturity's in our dangerous games, we have to reflect, meditate process reality, the terms with our feelings and emotions, cultivate our higher faculties, and respect and understand ourselves and each other, Technology help us in this reflect this not keep us stuck in these pornography games, in violent games, in these gossiping games, in these surveillance games, in these I'm right you're wrong games, Technology needs to reflect our higher. It isn't meant to serve us not us to serve it. We cannot surrender and hide in it. Draft. voice to text draft

There is no middle ground with sexual abuse it is always a crime.

There is no middle ground with sexual abuse it is always a crime. Directors who never faced their own truth continue to distort the truth in reenactments, in dramatic reenactment's of lies,of productions. Directors continue to reenact the cover-up, the distortions. To Give equal way to the perpetrator is a crime, a crime against the child, A crime against the child who soul they murdered a crime against a child whoes future self they did not care about, against children and against humanity.

It is never a choice between love

It is never a choice between love and sanity. Sometimes passion and sanity. but not love Passion Takes us out of our homogenize life Passion takes us out of the insanity of over compliance, over adjustment, over socialization, over normality, it brings us to the colors of being and takes us out of the colorist wrappings of our homogenized existence. I Love does this and more, love always increases in expanding, grounded and reifying ways. Copyright © 2016 Anthony Cavuoti All Rights Reserved

There is just more to us than what we know.

There is just more to us than what we know. Much more, pain will contract, Pain will frustrate, pain will distort, pain will conceal, Feeling your pain and understanding the sources of your pain will reveal, the labor pains of your higher self don't always come easy or in ways that are packaged and shiny self help books or videos. Once we feel it and go through it it is ours forever, no this. You will not be appreciated for knowing the truth. No one will praise you for seeing through their deceptions. and from their many Self-deceptions Appreciation won't come from others but it will come from you. It will come from the depths of your soul and the meaning of your life, not a perfect life. bit a More authentic life Not a life without conflict and much trouble, but your life. Copyright © 2016 Anthony Cavuoti All Rights Reserved

Where we get oxygen

We all need to be in an environment where we get oxygen for our inner depths, for our inner life, for the source of our vitality, our creativity. You have to Come up with rituals, and follow through, to leave toxic environments, that slowly diminished, that slowly suffocate. You have to periodically nurture all of your depths, you have to do things that express, that are Regenerate your core. For me writing is a source of re-generation, really being there for someone in a sincere and honest exchange of ideas, feelings and life experiences. In such moments we are once again in the center of the universe and the cards are reshuffled. Copyright © 2016 Anthony Cavuoti All Rights Reserved

There is a code of our soul

There is a code of our soul, a very real and deep code. A pattern of our being. Very, very Personal caring and sacred, sacred to you that expresses it self inside as well as outside of time. it is very unique to us, far outside the realm of any collective perception, or systems. It is deep in us, more real than real, more real than real, and faster. Most of the so called helping people and professions are to homogenize us, to strip away this reality, this reality of of us, that is more real than real. The underline fabric of reality. Copyright © 2015 Anthony Cavuoti All Rights Reserved

When we are cherished there is no stopping us

There is something deep inside of us, our inner most being that only our soul and God ever felt and experienced. Sometimes a mother could experience this while holding her quavering child tenderly in her receptive warm arms. Lovers experience this unexplainable something while holding one another closely but mistaking it for passion. Something inside of us is yearning, That only comes to life That only comes into this world When it is really seen, felt, and appreciated, no there is more to it than this when it is cherished. When it is cherished there is no stopping it, are real self, the Full force and Core of our being. Copyright © 2015 Anthony Cavuoti All Rights Reserved

Life will find a way to bring that out of you

No matter how unfairly you have been treated, or misunderstood, when you bring out the best in others, support that, life will find a way to bring that out of you and support that! Copyright © 2015 Anthony Cavuoti All Rights Reserved

Tiger cat

When I seen her there was something special about her. Something moved me, a pathos, A tender vinifying, somehow I felt like I always knew her. I thought she was buying lottery tickets in the back of the 7 11 I saids you are going to buy winner, she says I am just getting money from the ATM. She said it was her birthday We spoke Something just clicked She said she used to be a paralegal That she was going to go to law school but stopped because the bad guys win all the time. I told her what I did and that I understand I was low on money so I waited two weeks before I asked her out It was too cold to go on a picnic so she asked me to go to her place to help her put in cabinets. It seems a cabinets fell, her Kitchen cabinets The ones above the sink She bought some new ones She did not want the landlord to know that she had a cat She couldn't afford to pay the extra deposit money for the cat She was impressed because I had a toolbox I helped her Looked up how to put cabinets up on youtube so that I look like I knew what I was doing some. It was interesting She called me Popeye Probably because I was working so hard trying to impress her in putting up the cabinets. Tiger cat that was her cat, the cat, liked me The cat would caress me Snuggle by me One of my clients called One of my client’s Brother needed to be homeschooled and I was all right with it, I was confident with that Let the client know it was all right. I was a little impatient but still kind. Called on my day off. I worked hard putting in the nails, finding a way. Using the power screwdrivers. Afterwords, she took me in her car, we went to fat Burgers she really knew how to enjoy her food, Then she took me shopping with her for some things for her catering business She really knew how to have fun Then she Took me to one of the bars that she frequents Inside gave me some pictures of herself Later she asked me to me to meet her at one of her favorite bar, the leopard room it was right by my place I went home change the matter there I watched her move about the crowd all night long Everyone was enchanted by her she always return to me like tiger cat Then we went to my home afterwards But for the next many many enchanting nights we went to her home The cat loved me tiger cat Tiger cat would always come by me Even when she was on the phone with me tiger cat would ask for me. Approached me fearlessly Confidently, always eliciting my affection She wanted to cut Tiger cats tail off Started knocking things down on her small coffee table in her apartment. Told her, don't do that to the cat She loved me. Tiger cat loved me for a long time it seemed though it was only a few weeks, or months. But eventually she brought tiger cat back where she found them God how I wish I could somehow see tiger cat again Christ how I miss tiger cat!!!!!

Emotions

Once you start to be real with what you feel, you feel,you exist; you live more deeply sublimely and profoundly. (You cannot change others, or inspire them to be something they are not, or refuse to be, (meaning more genuine), or are afraid to be.) But you can be yourself, be your self more profoundly, deeply, meaningfully. Refusing to be abused, devalued, underrated, and disrespected. Even more than having a great life and having a great life that is yours, the degree for which you are real with life, life is real with you. This start with how you really feel. It is our emotions that compel, that create the circumstances and conditions for our being, for our existence. In my case this unclear subjective emerging I of me is not looking for resolution, meaning, nirvana, heaven, paradise, or non existence, it is simply striving for fulfillment, expression, to fully experience the maximum intensity and radiance of its aliveness, each life is simply increasing the wave of my passions, of my emotions, of the tides of my rising being in which it reached the pinnacle of which I am right now. But this wave has become conscious of itself, and I was born trying to escape it, out run it, but by chance I am body surfing on it, trying not to be thrown off of it as I ride it, to where, I do not know. Copyright © 2015 Anthony Cavuoti All Rights Reserved

Too many people Use the machine of society not to promote life but the Destroy life. Without knowing it they destroy themselves though they appear to flourish. All will be Revene All will be seen All will be know There is no Judgment Day simply a revealing day. Copyright © 2015 Anthony Cavuoti All Rights Reserved

Too many people Use the machine of society not to promote life but the Destroy life. Without knowing it they destroy themselves though they appear to flourish. All will be Revene All will be seen All will be know There is no Judgment Day simply a revealing day. Copyright © 2015 Anthony Cavuoti All Rights Reserved

Be true to your higher calling

No matter how strong your desires are, Be true to your higher calling which springs from your inner depths and your God-given talents Copyright © 2015 Anthony Cavuoti All Rights Reserved

Going within

Going within Gathering my storm Brings me back to how I was formed Alone in the gray I emerged A drive of profound, loving, unstoppable appreciation Deeply desiring to be true to the light This source, I am a small piece of it, an unique embodiment of it, expression of it A planet orbiting a star When I return I will have added and have been. Copyright © 2015 Anthony Cavuoti All Rights Reserved

Trust is the real currency

Trust is the real currency that keeps the world going and it keeps our lives in order and he keeps us on track. Trust is lacking in our culture and our society, it is replaced by cleverness, deceit selfishness and with the motto what ever it takes to get ahead. If you trust your considered to have a weakness. People that say I do not trust, are respected and feared for in their cunning no one can trick them and deceive them. Then again whatever they have to share inside doesn't adequately become manifest because is no real currency for it to come through, trust. The problem is, if you don't trust, you will not trust yourself, know your self, you will always be a reflection of others distortions of life instead of a reflection of real life and your own depths. Copyright © 2015 Anthony Cavuoti All Rights Reserved

Coming into being so promising

I open my door, the dark gray horizon, the cold winter wind carries me. Reborn, born coming into being so promising, so sublimely, making promises to life. Purifying myself so sincerely. The healing, comforting me so gentle, so warm, so loving. The erotic presence undoing myself so deliciously, amplified me, synthesizing me, like no other. With sophisticated, reflecting so wisely. With hero, going ahead so bravely so steadfastly. With vision so original, so liberating, With warrior, I'm determined, so sincere. With earth, so grounded, so secure.

What is it that most people do

What is it that most people do, get a job that you really hate for an inadequate amount of money. Try to please and or idealize a parent or someone from the older generation that never reflected on their life. Become emotionally over involved with some one from the opposite sex like you that has all sorts of unreasonable expectations. Try to obtain all of your satisfaction, fulfill all your unreasonable, and inflated dreams in such of relationship that is really a compensation that reflects your worst pathological attachment patterns. Attachment patterns that you refuse to see, that you cannot see because you never had time to reflect on yourself and know your truth, Dugs alcohol and desperation you go from one relationship to another or stay in a shitty marriage and pretend it is great.

The insidious side of cyberspace

But this is happening Right now, there is a deprogramming aberration amongst us dyslexia, Dyslexia the biological rebel We are slowly allowing our selves to be programed by our own random interactions with Facebook and the internet; how, well in you're responsible for individuation and integrating our self, but it seems of Facebook and the Internet is doing it for us but for their own benefit. Passive integration does not serve ourselves it serves their Financial interest and reduces us to a commodity. Facebook and Internet advertising towards us Interferes with contaminates our sacred synchronistic process.It's slowly pulls us away from ourselves into an object of desires of hungers with no center with no core, with no vistas, no dreams, no horizon in short with no soul. It will be a pigs paradise we will be well fed animals without any real dreams of her own. But of Course we could buy dreams for ourselves on the Internet, right. Wait now, from childhood onwards our forming emotional and psychological development and augmentation and developmental will be very influenced by this monetary driven, artificial process. We will be shaped as well as influence in ways that we can not even imagine. We will be Manipulated and coerced without us even knowing it. As a matter of fact, we could end up being active participants in her own self negation. So what is the implication of all of this. Instead of this life being our own personal encounter to enrich our own soul We become objectified, made to identify with the most superficial levels of ourselves, hence narcissism is the new normal, and our life now serves the few in their own personal interest. Right back to the worst part of Rome I can foresee a time where a psychological disorder will be equivalent to an act of self satisfying spontaneous expression. That is if you form a conviction or an impulse from a deep level of yourself such of an act challenge the status quo in you will be label deviant with A pathology and of course there will be a medication that will make you well, that will that will heighten your arousal to superficial stimulation and alienate you from your deeper sources and levels of your mind. But this is happening Right now, there is a deprogramming aberration amongst us dyslexia, Dyslexia the biological rebel Copyright © 2015 Anthony Cavuoti All Rights Reserved

Enchantress

He wanted to change the world with his ideas of the archetypical portals, just like every rainbow is unique every design of a kaleidoscope is unique, we all embodied the attributes of creation in a one of a kind way, that is each of us is the universe and in the universe, and while in it in a finite embodiment we enrich it and all that we have contact with an unknown ways. But now all that he wants to do is be with her, to be with her once again in her room. She is the universe, she has everything, she is passion, life. She's a living dynamics of the vitality of life. Once you're inside life there's no getting out, everything else is so unsatisfying. Can no longer settle for facsimiles. He keeps dreaming of being with her, in her room, in the dream she has two different color eyes but she doesn't in reality. One light gray, the other dark brown. Gray, gray wolf the Native American enchantress of her. Mysteries and fold experience, in ecstasy, tenderness, in food, in drinking in touching. in her heart, in her car, in her art, in her cleaning, in her smile. He can't wait for, the title wavetitle-through the galaxys, for the next bardo, for the next incarnation, for the Phoenix. Copyright © 2015 Anthony Cavuoti All Rights Reserved

That certain something

Each day we awaken more to the portion of creation that we are. We find new ways to appreciate and express that certain something as we awaken to it more and more Copyright © 2015 Anthony Cavuoti All Rights Reserved

Be as wise as the snake gentle as a dove

The has mind chambers, dimensions as well as powers that we do not comprehend, We are all increasing, expanding our powers and our experiences of who we are We increase her range together at the same time we work at cross purposes It all starts with imagination, following through. With plans, with experiments, with reflections Be as wise as the snake gentle as a dove, as Christ said.

She is all that I can see

Sometimes I am the fool Ignoring my feelings and using my body like it tool, Sometimes I Take care of everyone except myself Sometimes I simply just need to feel That's something beyond my meaning is real Sometimes I just feel so tenderly She is all that I can see To the point where she's everything to me but illusions they just fade away But they are more real than the brick More real than light more real than ground more real than sound More real than a blink more real than a swallow more Real than awakening more real than sleep Yes yes it is really that deep Sweet sweet allusion broke my heart Beginning Echo genesis, phoenix it's a new start.

I am no mistake.

I am no mistake. Though adopted and falsely documented from the start Though dyslexic and slandered from the start. Misunderstood from the start Targeted for others ignorance and projections She was no mistake Similar to me Misunderstood and forsaken But never gave up More than passion real life real love Doesn't always fulfill its self But it awakens you Brings you back to yourself See through the veil of institutionalize, cultural, lies socialized slanders and lies She is still freeing me like starlight from a distant past

I choose to meditate work out and write.

I don't like when people yell at teenagers or children. I see teachers and leaders doing this. And the parents that are supporting the group they tend to perpetrate this on each other. people project onto others their insecurities to maintain their equilibrium. I choose to meditate work out and write. Not to use others vulnerabilities for a crutch. And I really do not like it when people attempt to play on my vulnerability. For them I'm like electric eel underestimate me at your own peril

Time is how we are connected and stretch out together.

11 19 15 You see, time is what we are, more than you know. Time is how we are connected and stretch out together. You are the awakened the artist of your unfolding in the world of sleeping time. Many are time bomb to them self. You stay awake, the defuser of ignorance, of fear, the makers, the shakers, the awakers of time. 11 19 15

People recover from so called mental illness when they sincerely experience and face the truth of the abuse, neglect, and traumas they experienced as children.

People recover from so called mental illness when they sincerely experience and face the truth of the abuse, neglect, and traumas they experienced as children. Recovery happens when they no longer attempt and desire to cover it up with chemicals. Our job is to extricate them from this entanglement. Through sincere Empathy and support with the aid of an enlightened person people find their own answers, balance and orientation. They no longer act out what was done to them as children and are no longer willing to destroy themselves to cover up the truth. An enlightened person is someone who is able to face their own truth and is able to stand on their own emotional legs without crutches; they assist their clients to do the same in their own way.

You have to build a bridge of communication conducive for real intimacy before, or while you are crossing the bridge of passion.

You have to build a bridge of communication conducive for real intimacy before, or while you are crossing the bridge of passion. Otherwise it's tragic, lovely, rocking, devastating, delicious, life-changing, ecstasy but tragic. You will act out unresolved issues from your past. Resurrect and attempt to perfect unresolved issues from your past. Stuck in Jurassic Park Fighting for your life mistakeing excitement and intensity for love. Yes you will grow but you will not grow in love. Copyright © 2015 Anthony Cavuoti All Rights Reserved

smaller than a mustard seed

The part of us that loves, part of us were their is real love, our soul, our spirit, smaller than a mustard seed but larger than all the universes combine, more powerful then all combined. So relax, your debts are in the center of it all, creating it all being it all, guiding it all ! Working in mysterious ways, a dream beyond our comprehension Voice to text draft

A.D.D. is always the results of how Little Attention, real attention you give your children.

A.D.D. is always the results of how Little Attention, real attention you give your children. The brain does not lie it's the map of your attitude towards your child. Children always reflect their parents attitudes towards them.. weather its conscious or not admit it and not accepted or it not. Genetics code is analogous to a phonebook you could have a phone book of your city and still not know it. Have to experience every street every person every relationship....... Drug companies make money from genetics not from the truth and not from our experience, not from our wisdom and courage to face the truth.

All acts of Violence stem from child-abuse, insidious forms of child abuse;

All acts of Violence stem from child-abuse, insidious forms of child abuse; the abusive parent and abuse child are not even aware of this most of the time. The adult child perpetrates what was done upon them. They come up with all sorts of rationales. Just like the people that think spankings, shaming and depriving love is Okay, come up with all sorts of seemingly logical and sophisticated rationales. Most of our brain development happens from pre- natal to four years: Once damage is done it this part of the brain forever, the cerebral cortex higher functioning simply rationalizes the destructive impulses. The abused child is forced to fight this headwind for the rest of their life. By facing our own child abuse, neglect and all its insidious forms and we really feel what we felt as children, not what we were told to feel or think we should feel, than we no longer perpetrate and we are able see through of the mendacity, manipulations, destructive games and ignorance of others.

Reify our depths

For better and worse or both, how we felt before birth, intra uterusly, as an infant, as a child are the impressions we carry for the rest of our life. Blessed our those that go through life with this tale wind. But the vast majority of of us have a headwind, dealing with so called loved ones hostel, and ambiguous attitudes right from the start. The damage is made and set for life. Denial of this only makes for a life of distortions and illusions that is a life of denial. We end up believing we are in love with our distortions. We destroy each other by trying to make our distortions work. We go to work for our distortions, we marry our distortions, we idealize are distortions. That is why we self-destruct. That is why you have so many symptoms. That is why you're depressed. Is why you drink so much. Is why you are on medications. That is why you are so irritated. That is why you want so much materialistically, in a vain attempt to fill is void. But we want to be with someone that loves us for us, as we really are, who excepts us when we are in our real emotional states. Think about that, how real that is. We need to be with Someone that loves us not for what we project which takes constant effort, which is not the self but an effort of the self; to flourish we need someone that sees us, that except that cherishes us for how we really are, in our default mold, which is our early impressions. Which for most of us is not a pretty picture. The active persona that we cultivate later in life is our representative. The more our representative represents us, and not our ideal self , the more real satisfaction we will experience. It takes wisdom, intellect, and a deep desire to live your life to except this. Your life could seem to be very successful, very interesting but if it is not your life, you have no real life. First we have to see ourselves. We cannot see our own eyes in our own face. So we need to be around people that really love us for us. A Big house can not make up for lack of authenticity. Sex all the time, will not make up for lack of authenticity. All the money in the world will never make up for lack of authenticity. All the fame in the world cannot make up for lack of authenticity. Very famous rich and successful Actors are committing suicide, think about it! This distorted and jaded imprinting that we have for life is not a tragedy, it is a constant reminder not to play the game so much where you take it as real, it enables you to see it as it is, a distorted part of a process, yours is not to master the game instead it is to remake the game, to increase its range of human expression, to make it more human, too deepen it and expand the definition of humanity, even if the world does not want to play our game which is not a game, we live our truth anyways for a portion of the world that is ready to free them self, we make our own pocket of sanity. This forces us to tap deeper into a higher self, to be more attuned to our debts self, too more fully identify with our deeper nature, the layers of us that are not born in this life and that do not dissolve in his life, instead this dimension of us, increases through this life. This side of us is closer to our core. The more we live authentically from such debts the more we reifies a deeper portion of our individual subjective depths, that resonate in us for eternity. When we are true to our core, we now only tranforn our very life, we set the conditions, we set the switches for you high or human faculties to emerge, this allowed others to more fully manifest their uniqueness, less distractions, less distortions, less materialistic and ornamentation. Copyright © 2015 Anthony Cavuoti All Rights Reserved

Thank you

LA County got sued Because the resource classes weren't doing anything for the dyslexic students in them They would just vegetate When I was in high school the black girls in the class read my poems Read my short stories They seen me Encourage me to believe in myself, Seen my strengths see my powers Seen through the false reflections, and distortions of the school. Of the adults The black girls would not let me be anything less then what I was meant to be They would not let my or the adult world false reflections diminish me They see my future self and encourage me I worked on my short stories in the resource class I worked on my book in the resource class with them I dreamt of my future self Now I am a therapist much later life, I'm a professional writer I am a father I'm a competent professional She recognized me just like they recognize me She would not let me hide from myself just like they would not let me high for myself I'm forever thankful and grateful Voice to text draft Anthony cavuoti

Mistaken familiarity

She was Abused by her father emotionally going up. But she could not admit this to herself because she depended on him financially. And he appear to others to be so wonderful. Is there any wonder why she cannot present relationship but the person she is with is emotionally abusive. Mistaken familiarity for normality, constantly going back to the Trumatic feeling thinking that's a form of attachment or love Anthony Cavuoti voice to text draft

The antidote,real emotion attuned

Children and teenagers that where abuse, neglected, sexually harassed used their sexuality to self regulate them self and re-abuse themselves. They are caught in the network of their brain that was shaped by the abuse. If you Grab a glass when it is being formed you alter it shape for the rest of its existence. As adults they perpetrate and become victims of one another, re abusing one another and satisfying one another while undoing one another. A strange trap. Just like the smell of a cigarette reminds some of good memories of their childhood, A safe place but the sake place is really toxic, many have learn to eat from a poisonous vine, when in fact there are many fines and routes roots that are not poisonous. Drugs and alcohol are another one of these poisonous roots The antidote,real emotion attuned, some one who really loves you, underhand you and you them self. They are able and willing to get to know your depths, see all sides of you. Real self encounters, resisting and not relating and using one another in roles as objects. If you ignorant or in denial this will offend you

The more she expressed her self,

She would say, How much she missed him, how great he was and would have been as a man. I told him to stay inside, do not go out side. I asked him, what do you want me to pick up for you while I am out, he said ice-cream, what does that tell you where he is at. I seen the hurt in her, the depths of her despair, the boundlessness of her love. I said innocence. Yes innocence, he was still a child. Even though he was seventeen years old he was still an innocent child inside. Than I come back to see the road blocked and I new something was wrong, I could feel it. Just new, my heart sank. Than later I had to deal with doctors and nurses treating him like an object at the hospital while he was in the coma. Pulling the plug, no concern for my feelings, how he meant everything to me. After such, my heart, my soul was shattered. Later I would meet someone else, this other lady at places she knew. She would speak about the sufferings she experience, felt as a child. The abuse she experience as a teenager and young lady. The lingering devastation of the abuse she experienced in her last relationship. The more she expressed her self, the more she feels, the more I am able to be connected to her, I always wanted to be there for her, am for a while I was. but later not knowing how to find the places where she was at or the many misunderstandings and frustrations of the day of a dyslexic and my pride, my ego would flare up, and I was not me, but pain instead, not being there for her but venting my pain. Copyright © 2015 Anthony Cavuoti All Rights Reserved

Black lives matter.

Black lives matter. She would say, How much she missed him, how great he was and would have been as a man. I told him to stay inside, do not go out side. I asked him, what do you want me to pick up for you while I am out, he said ice-cream, what does that tell you where he is at. I seen the hurt in her, the depths of her despair, the boundlessness of her love. I said innocence. Yes innocence, he was still a child. Even though he was seventeen years old he was still an innocent child inside. Than I come back to see the road blocked and I new something was wrong, I could feel it. Just new, my heart sank. Than later I had to deal with doctors and nurses treating him like a object at the hospital while he was in the coma. Pulling the plug, no concern for my feelings, how he meant everything to me. Copyright © 2015 Anthony Cavuoti All Rights Reserved

I wanted you with love

I wanted you with love You are much much more than ecstasy and pleasure.

I don't care what they say about what goes down in the zebra

Dyslexics might misunderstand things, but in doing so we really perceive things. I don't care what they say about what goes down in the zebra I don't care what you do You are perfect just as you

Stronger

Yes stronger, and stronger Stronger every day Longer A little longer You know this feeling just will stay. Stronger and stronger, Stronger is my way Stronger and stronger nothings in my way stronger and stronger I lost the silly way. stronger and stronger new horizons of the day.

Outter events are only suggestive not reflective.

The world does not reflect us We have an inner sun that is always shining from within. Love yourself no matter what! Copyright © 2015 Anthony Cavuoti All Rights Reserved

She is from the future and from the pass, she is the parentheses of sanity in our insane time.

Her future self, her soul would from time to time chime in, speak to me through what ever distortions or frustrations she had with me or with herself. She is an advance soul, a more polished being masquerading as a stormy lady, as a broken toy, but she is a very Wise, powerful and lovely female shaman. The full power of her spirit I did not see until it was too late. She is from the future and from the pass, she is the parentheses of sanity in our insane times. She's unconscious of this most of the time in a pedestrian trance but she is so advance so, so very advance. She inspired me, she came to me,, woken me, she healed me, she taught me, seduce me, strengthen me, reflected me, amplified me, broke me, made me, she warned me, she guided me perfectly when I needed her and in a preternatural flow and rhythm of a Goddess that forgot she is a goddess. But her songs, her soul comes through the faultlines of her human vulnerabilities, fallibilities.

technology should serve man, instead man is now serving technology

Know this, man first bit from the tree of knowledge rather than the tree of love. We are doing the same thing now with technology, with these computers. could well do better without our addiction to technology. When are technology , outstrips are Humanity, yes. Think of how far our you consciousness and humanity could go if we really live from the heart. technology should serve man, instead man is now serving technology

We are all here to reveal this human potential to one another in our own unique way, through others and our own very frustrating limitations and destructive false perceptions.

We are all here to reveal this human potential to one another in our own unique way, through others and our own very frustrating limitations and destructive false perceptions.

The status quo of the system wants to keep you a worm, a grateful one and for it to be your wings. It does this by having you believe your chrysalis process is a pathology or an act of deviance.

The status quo of the system wants to keep you a worm, a grateful one and for it to be your wings. It does this by having you believe your chrysalis process is a pathology or an act of deviance. The goal if the antichrist is to kill the messiah before he is born. (What could Herod do with a surveillance state.) Or stop the savior from recognizing that he is the messiah. Keep the buddha permanently behind his father’s walls until it's too late. We are unknowingly worshiping and creating the anti Christ every time we are on in some cyber space. I fully understand the irony of this post.

There is more to us than we know.

There is more to us than we know. Most of the time we unconsciously identify with our ego and our perceived social status, when in fact we are co-creators with our generation, with the processes of evolution, with the expanding universe, with all sides of itself seemingly distancing apart when in fact the further they move apart physically on one level the more they are really becoming more integrated, harmonizing and synergizing as well as vivifying in ways that we can not yet perceive and imagine. We are coterminous and co creators with creation; this is a fact that can never be changed. All of us are the very core of creation itself always expanding out with one another in greater, deeper and wider ranges of harmony, sophistication, and imaginings. Our desires lead the way for us to keep coming to one another in unexpecting ways through enthralling encounters, more passionate enriched lives with one another over and over. We have falsely identified with the artificial dirt around us, thinking this is being grounded and normal instead of in our very being, soul, which has been and will always be the very core of all creation itself. Copyright © 2015 Anthony Cavuoti All Rights Reserved

There are many cross currents in us, so many.

There are many cross currents in us, so many. What we identify with as our self is a ephemeral social construct that has no lasting substance, unless you give it a purpose to your depths, and is a source of real life, which is a force greater than biological life, it creates the conditions of greater more fulfilling imaginings of life. There is taboo about identifying with your depths, of knowing your self and those that you are most profoundly connected to. Copyright © 2015 Anthony Cavuoti All Rights Reserved

Take root in your soul, not in others issues.

Take root in your soul, not in others issues.

She'll be safer that way, right!

Let's get Mary Magdalene to put a restraining order on him. She'll be safer that way, right!

Hide go seek.

We still play hide go seek. As adults this is nothing unique. But don't hide from yourself. Don't be so lost and can't be found. Don't take refuge In the games you play. For you just pushing your truth away You're losing time and that is the real. Copyright © 2015 Anthony Cavuoti All Rights Reserved

All of my writing is art, not Chronicles.

All of my writing is art, not Chronicles. It takes one to be sensitive to the ambiguities of life. It takes intelligence and reflection to be able to absorb my writings as well as a living rich inner life. For those of you that do, Thank you for being you.

She is Beautiful, lovely and far beyond the norm

She is Beautiful, lovely and far beyond the norm That is why she's storm. She's able to really see my soul. Will Always cherish her She's truly all of her sides She is a bumpy but Beautiful ride. Take you to your very core. Destroy you and you will ask for more. For you are more real for having been with her! In a past life I killed the killers, the treacherous in the Civil War She was a native Canadian Blackfoot woman who was subjected to being Chattle. such residence from our past, Residence distort as they amplify. That is why she so real even as she tells her lies. With her the strength and mystery of my soul and passion are reify Copyright © 2015 Anthony Cavuoti All Rights Reserved

The surveillance of your killer and her Killers does not go away.

I faced some of my deepest fears. I cried my most salty tears. I collapsed right into my core. Take your soul over a buck. Take your heart over a fuck. You could gamble with them in how you play, but never never forget your innermost promise to yourself or loose your way. Judas Rome Caesar and Christ. Kennedy was shot more than twice. The surveillance of your killer and her Killers does not go away. Some will really love you, bring you to your self even though they betray you as they betrayed them self.

Without love we slowly die.

Without love we slowly die. when we lack love, we rush time. A race Against this insidious death. And seek instant gratification, in the past it was TV now it's computers, portals of cyberspace, Facebook, Twitter, Instagram soon virtually reality. We go faster and faster. The symptoms of our time. The degree to which we raise children without knowing it, without giving them real love, is a degree for which they will as adults seek instant gratifications, pursue more and more false life and pleasures in cyberspace, and less and less real human contact, experience and relationships; they will not matter much to them, only what they could obtain through them. Marketers and advertisers will make a virtue out of this pathologies, in time the financial pressures will force some scholars to back it. If you feel what you feel and be what you are with excepting people, that do not repress their own issues and perpetrate their issues on you, you slowly heal yourself. Copyright © 2015 Anthony Cavuoti All Rights Reserved

When they do not support our humanity

Power, status, hierarchy, specialization, allure, there is nothing wrong with these forces in them selves, the problem occurs when they do not support our humanity, but become primary and no longer serve our humanity but become ways in which we hide from our self, perpetually distracting us and distancing us from one another, with the illusion that we are really existing in a meaningful way that is conducive to our real best interest. They become a problem for us, us meaning humanity when our primary superficial biological attributes and propensities become tools use by some to manipulate many, but this process has taken on a life of its own and all are now drawn into it and lost. Copyright © 2015 Anthony Cavuoti All Rights Reserved

Through each setback we summons more of the depths of ourselves

Through each setback we summons more of the depths of ourselves, of a deeper spirit, we not only learn about ourselves and strengthen ourselves, we teach, we give hope, we give renewed vigor and vitality to humanity, to go forwards with life in the spirit of love and generosity no matter what!!!!!

More assertive and gentler at the same time.

I have found that I am more assertive and gentler at the same time. I believe this comes from not just more understanding of myself, my nature and human nature, but a deeper understanding of both with a more profound appreciation of the sacredness of this exchange.

I could not resist her

I could not resist her Nor could i participate in her self-destruction

Candy girl, has heart

She is a little crazy, true, and for me game over. Being dyslexic I really experience how people, especially professional and so called normal mature people abuse the most the most vulnerable at their most vulnerable It is so intrinsic to the condescending perverted nature; such sheep, conformist have no regards for the abilities and traits that make dyslexic people so spectacular, they have no shame in the malicious way they cowardly sniper dyslexics through the bureaucratic system. She is dyslexic, hence my deep pathos for her. She had heart, did not care about their standards and rules. Could careless without a thought. The problem is with some people they take this too far, they have no visions or standard. Courage with no compass. But she did have heart. Much heart.

Poisonous roots

You reach a point where you intentionally stop eating and believing that you are getting real nutrition from poisonous roots. (Metaphorically). Or the roots pretended to be there for you but really were not, for what ever reasons, they were preoccupied with their own internal turmoil.This is difficult if you came from a place where the roots were there for you and good for you on some levels but underminding and undoing you on others. When you reach a point where you have the discernment to really tell the difference, deeply, even far beyond cultural and social perception, where your need for self fulfillment outstrips all of them, regardless of how intense or alluring or seductively they present themselves or they make themselves. Copyright © 2015 Anthony Cavuoti All Rights Reserved

Tenderness and longing of my heart

Can my tenderness and longing of my heart ever be embraced, understood. Will I forever be a slave to my exterior, to others misunderstandings and projections of me. Will others always see the monster in Charles Bukowski and not his tender heart. Will I always be a target of emotional assassination, because of my tenderness and daring outside of the conventional. Will these I know and don't know forever try to destroy me on different levels and not comprehend, cherish and nourish my tender longings of my being.

Putting intelligence and gifts over my desires and sentimentality

Putting intelligence and gifts over my desires and sentimentality

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She was my greatest truth for a while.

She was my greatest truth for a while. She taught me not to be afraid of myself, of my nature, to really not care about what others think. Her wild live embracing madness freed me from the suffocating madness of the cowards normality of those that take refuge in standard bearing socially defined roles of maturity and normality. What I fear, what I know. Only the strong and broken of equal power to me are able, are capable and willing to be there for me enough to truly and accurately reflect me back to myself, to allow me to encounter, to know the truth of myself, the real truth, of my powers, needs and wants were I can live out what is really mine and satisfying. Copyright © 2015 Anthony Cavuoti All Rights Reserved

How I feel at times

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Always there

It was so natural, almost no effort, nothing forced. Feeling, surrender, active. Such tenderness, such connection, such passion, it was like swimming in a lovely dream of passion. Once, there, it was as if I was always there.

Coffee table

Her one room studio apartment is small, but it is crowded with her artful style, her humanity. By her bed that we sit on to watch TV there is her white coffee table. She makes these delicious complex meals, we eat on the high small coffee table while watching TV. She has black licorice jelly beans and many other candies set along the far edges of the side of the table away from the bed. . Emergency candy for her diabetes. I can’t resist it. She always keeps the table and the white rug under it so clean. So well kept. She is so vigilant with the table. It is so small but it is her domain, her control. She is so very generous with this small space and so very exacting My heart goes out to her and her tireless efforts on the small table that somehow symbolizes part of her life. Such boundless lovely energy balancing on such of a small space. Somehow she pulls it off. Except for a few well placed looks at times all is so very pleasant, nothing falls.

I followed her into the darkness and got lost.

I followed her into the darkness and got lost but I found my lost side, my dark half. She was more than my fight flight response gone mad. She was my other half.

To the last lady I dated

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Candy Girl

As she puts the glass back on the bar and looks at me she says, You lost something.   I do not know why or how you lost it, but you  lost your real power  that you pretend   you do not possess.  Your  hiding from your self, but you know you lost your balls.  She nonchalantly calls to  the bartender who is very familiar with her to give her another Gin and club soda.  She turns towards me again powerfully.  Now such as in such moments , it is as if she is channeling while seeing through me and into the concealed forgotten chambers of the depths of my soul. Now she has a hold of  a deep subline hidden corner of my soul, of a mysterious bardo depths of such consequence.  Her words sing of truth,  gliding they   carry such profound weight though  her character  can seem questionable at times.  I  am stunned,numbed  and arrested by the unknown source of the certain truths  she knows of me , I  am  thoroughly convinced for certain that my  entire life is being altered by the  conveyances of her utterances.    I feel exposed, ashamed, yet sense that she deeply and truly  adores me.