You love so much more alive.

Little miracles, big miracles are so very common, they really are. Life could fill you with so much anxiety one moment, later that day you see it was clearing you to wisdom, now you love much wiser, deeper, you love so much more alive. 

When we pray

When we pray we are connecting to the living source of all of creation, we are connecting once more to the powers of being that created and sustain all of the cosmos, life, universes, and civilizations. By praying you are unfolding this power in your daily life.   Your daily life with all of its mundane toiles is just as important to God as the creation of new, universes, galaxies, stars, planets, mountains and life itself.  It is just as magnificent to God as all of this.

Before I was born

Before I was born, before I was in the womb, before it all I was with God, a unique reflection of God, as we all are, some how I remember this. I feel this. 

If your mother really showed you love and affection

If your mother really showed you love and affection as a child you would not have to force affection for her and she should not demand it.  Most people relate to God as of she is this sort of mentally ill parent.

Now as an adult, now you MUST DO IT OUT OF DUTY, on the outside, out of fear, out of anxiety. The same is true for father.  If he really respected you as a child, you would respect him, but if he did not, well.  If your mother was immature then, borderline then, she is that way now if she never faced her issues. Why must she project her issues on you. Why must you continue to relate to God as if she is an uneducated, mentally  ill parent that makes infantilizing demands.   The real God is love.