childhood abuse and the coverup of it

The Tony Soprano character represents many of the abusive ways men with strength, abilities and some dimensions of character, (bravery, courage, and follow through,) deal with pain, perpetuate their pain, their childhood abuse and the coverup of it and only appear to resolve their pain in more sophisticated and concealed ways. Yet in the end such emotionally blind individuals (predatory narcissist) find ways to even use therapy as a means to inflict abuse on others, their children and the world the way the religions of the world did and still do.

Non-verbal right brain intelligence

This morning I seen for my self Martin’s friend Rachel Jeante's testimony, on several occasions with out much effort she naturally blow the defense attorney away. Her naturel mind power conveyed the truth in away the defense attorneys court room interrogation tricks could not distort, they could not twist the power of her truth and perception, only later in the day did white arrogance journalist and side line attorneys twist what happened with editing. White people have a problem, with non-verbal intelligence and communication, that is right brain power that trumps left brain training. Non-verbal right brain intelligence it is free, it is real and it is more powerful then any degree and many arrogant elitist people (most of whom are white) will play the game as if such power does not count even though the science says otherwise.

We are not machines, but to work in harmony, each of us is more like original music.

Real change happens, never on one level but on many levels. What makes change difficult at times is that we could use one level to hide, to talk the talk, to look as if you have changed, when in fact you have not. On the other hand one level is often a blue print for change, a map for change, a drive, and impulse, intuitions guiding us to change. . The trick is not to have all the levels work at once, we are not machines, but to work in harmony, each of us is more like original music.

How do we go forwards without these bonds of trauma? How to create and sustain meaningful connections without diminishing any of our vitalities?

For 99.7 percept of our history men have been fighting one another in groups and within groups to the death; women have been fanning the flame of this passion, no one is innocent except the children, all of which were exposed to this, they heard the war-cries and witnessed the abusive behaviors and were forced to believe it was the only way to salvation and the only way to survive was to be part of it, though they had mix intense emotions. How do we now keep the passion without the abuse? How do we go forwards without these bonds of trauma? How to create and sustain meaningful connections without diminishing any of our vitalities?

shallow, superficial, meaningless

Most live shallow, superficial, meaningless lives; just running blind with the heard, their children are the only thing that is decent, that is not a slave to expectations and ignorance. The child owns the parent only his/her genuine love which you can never fake or force. The child does not have to love someone not-worthy of love, for you fools that refuse to grow past your abuse and the cover up, even worse those self righteous parent’s that marry their power while pretending it is work, this sort of parent that neglected their child and refuses to see it, which is far worse than any abuse and it is sanctioned my our culture. But the adult child feels it, Knows it, and does not pretend it is not so, so that he or she stays awake emotionally so as to break the cycle, of lies, deception and fake closeness.

flying birds in the world of flightless birds

If you are bad at one thing or some things that people believe is essential such as reading, spelling, directions, people then unconsciously dismiss you, subtlety and nor so subtlety, conveying that you must be insufficient as a person for you lack what is needed to be taken seriously in anything serious. Paradoxically dyslexics are very powerful at other things, they are metaphorically flying birds in the world of flightless birds, or dolphins with tuna’s.

The ocean is more than any oil spill.

The ocean is more than any oil spill. No matter how much ignorance you mistake as love you drill. If you where raise in a man made desert storm, It will take you awhile not to idealized and perpetuate the abuse for which you where formed. Your mountain is more than the fraction part of its base that is a quarry You will face your past and live your own story Find others that dare to be free, away from the shores of borderline narcissistic psychopathic, cover up. Into the glory of your soul. Into the life that is your soul of meaning purpose and sublime wonder, and real love.

Storing experiences

Storing experiences and retrieving them, using them in life, how you react to others in life. If you do not know how traumatic experiences where stored in you, you will not understand why at times you react as you do. You self will not know it self and the parts of you that are buried alive will cry out in pain until you pay attention to them. Sometimes people do not even know that they were traumatized, the collective denial of the family cover-up.

The characters in my book are unknowingly living parallel realities, the same life and reality but different, different aspects of the same reality, each character is directly are indirectly awakening and influencing one another to live out their share of paradise, that is why they and we are here. By making it real here we make it real there. We promised the light, God Life and our selves that we will do our best and get it right this time, somehow we end up thinking we are better or worse then the rest of others like us, but this time we not only remember the promise we made to life, we remember the traps here as well. Parrallity, By Anthony Cavuoti.