There are moments of incandescence which I can not explain

There are moments of incandescence which I can not explain. Part of it is the byproduct of a great effort and steadfastness. Still, when I am faced with overwhelming odds, when all seems lost, the depths of my soul calls out for truth, and it is there.

Life, is full of so many unexpected surprises

Life, is full of so many unexpected surprises, they come and go, you are let down hard, it seems as if you will never feel that certain something again, you meet and find what you need and desire and the possibilities of the healing of your pain and the expansion of your more mature longings are there, but now you are so cool with it, you prefer it, not cling to it, in fact you do not trust it, you do not go with it, you keep to your self as you have some fun but you wait, and know you will wait very long, for the pain and trauma had taught you well. And that is enough, which is enough. If this makes no sense, i understand but some day you will come around and see.