Lightening is quicker

As a therapist, this is what I see at times.  

Lightening is quicker than thunder, for many their weaknesses are exposed first, latent powers in them manifest afterwards in unconventional ways.   GOD help them if they are adopted with a narcissistic, self-adsorbed father with compulsion issues, denial, anger, rigidity.   Also God really be their for them with their borderline mother who can’t help but freely expose all of their children’s weaknesses publicly while being blind to their strengths, abusing them for not living up to the conventional culturally marketed definition of greatness that the queen demands.  

Beauty of Darkness

Beauty of Darkness 

Darkness is infinity, eternity, the source of all.   It gives birth to all life, to all forms, holds all, sustains all, we fear the primacy, as we feared the oceans, as we fear what is beyond the known, the more we grow, the more we see the more we will appreciate.

One dimension

One dimension of my book is we go from unconscious thoughts of God to conscious thoughts of God.  We go from an isolated unintentional drive to blindly connect with other thoughts of God in order to feed our hunger for power and bliss, we go from this too connecting to others intentionally, out of love, recognition, compassion, harmony, so that all might be more able to fully embody, express the one that is thinking us; in doing the latter we are simultaneously keeping our unique identity while becoming closer to and more like God, embodying God more, creation more, being more true to our origin, God, the source of all that is thinking us. 

rather be no more

People that experienced emotional mis-attunement as an infant, as children, rather be no more then be reborn into another existence where they could experience the same suffering again.  Such are the ones that believe in no God, no meaning to creation, and no existence past this life. But what they do with that pain will determine their next world, the ecology of their next carnation, did they inflict their pain on others, Hitler.  Or did they use their pain, their deep suffering to make the world more of a paradise on earth, a freer realm, a more just, more humane place, where one can experience, express a fuller range of being, a more creative life of depth, of harmony; so many more did this, we just never read about them, hear about them. 

Denial of the denial

An author I know wrote. R.M. 

With my family, they despise others, each other, mostly superficial love, much, much contempt, little love, expressed mostly indirectly through things, cleaning, food, buying things, many great things that can never make up for, or take the place of the lack of direct love, not being able to express it, at times uncertain if it is there.

 On deeper levels, much contempt, much contempt covered up with denial.  Denial of the denial. 

Not seeing it, the contempt they have for you, they have more contempt for you, abuse you more emotionally and have you feel it is your own issue, that the very real hostility and negative feelings you are picking up from them are your own derange feelings, emotions, weakness and defect of mind, of self, of soul.  

If you sacrifice much of yourself to be a hero for them, they might love you, respect you.  No, if you do they will pretended be impressed, but ninety percent of their words, their real feelings will despise you, They will make fun of you, constantly, loudly expose the weakness, weaknesses that were made and greatly amplified in your efforts to save them, to gain their respect, to end the abuse, to be loved.  

By saving yourself you save them, be the one to put love over all other desires, traditions, impulses, abusive outdated ways of keeping distance from one another in relating. 

mistake familiar for normal

If you were emotional and or sexually abused as a child you are vulnerable to others with similar or the same issues as your abuser. As adults we all have lapses of judgment, but are feelings protect us, they warn us that something is wrong, but if you were abused you mistake familiar for normal. 




Your inner normal needs for heeling from the abuse, from the betrayal lead you at best to a real healer, at worse to re-expereince the abuse, a vain attempt to be free from it, to gain mastery over it. 

Sometimes

Sometimes I just want to be, simply want share delight, free space, joy of naturally being, no **** heads in sight, just the pureness of life uninterrupted for a while by the bombardment of manipulative people pushing the **** of their or some companies' agenda on me. 

Each of us is an unique interpretation of creation

Each of us is an unique interpretation of the kaleidoscope hologram of the infinite singularity.   The patterns of how we collectively perceived and interacted created the gods of the pantheon; the singularity itself is monotheism.    Escaping from the bondage of our reality is what Buddha and Christ are about.   The outside tangible universe is just one of an endless expressions of this.  Civilizations and societies attempt to create a matrix in time where by we could co-exist in.    But each of us are also expanding the boundaries of this starting point, we call reality.   Though marvelous in many ways, our civilizations, cultures and all of its tools, reflect what is most common, basic in all of us as beings.   We took shelter in this here as well as in other realms, we are learning to except, appreciate  , tolerate and exist in shared harmony, without depreciating our vitality and loosing the living connection to our  depths.  

We have our own Sublime mind

We have our own Sublime mind, works of that part of us are deeper as well as above all that is known about you corporeally, and beyond everything what is acquired true, as well as real. e.g., your love is real, our deep desires are real

People are becomeing willing drones

Hate it when I ask for  a coffee at McDonalds and I am asked if I would like an apple pie. This is dehumanizing ignorance. "Would you like cheese on that burger" "No!!!!!  Would you like a kick in the ass with that question."

Sometimes I just want to be

Sometimes I just want to be, simply want share delight, free space, joy of naturally being, no shitheads in sight, just the pureness of life uninterrupted for a while by the bombardment of manipulative people pushing the shit of their or some companies' agenda on me.

darkness of the past

Most people were misunderstood as children as a result they had to deal with their parents darkness, neglect, as well as (intentional and or unintentional) tormenting ways to some degree. Our parent's ways, their hostility, their darkness has become part of us, for better and for worse. Children need plenty of love, attention, kindness, understanding, patients and time, if they do not get it they blame them selves for their parent's lack of involvement; if we were a child in such of a situation we would think, "I hate my self, I am the worse person in the world, I will destroy my self." Many children think this way in different forms and variations. For most adults such experiences and thoughts are the brick and mortar as well as the structure of their character and personality; much blindness of ambition runs over this high way of self, of ego, much productivity and much, much too much suffering.

Mind

The mind is made up by what it is exposed to from the environments from the prenatal development onwards, to its pattern imprint from prior existences, and the unique share of creation it is an expression of; all of this reflects a particular beings journey from unawareness into a shared awareness with others on various levels of becoming.

Family curse

One thing that I notice about my family, they just do not relate to one another in a supportive way. Life at times seems as if I am fighting one big curse, family curse. The curse that each family member keeps putting on each other; always in the subtext, I mean behind the relationships, I am thinking of my mother's side, everyone is stealthily at war with one another trying to make it seem as if it does not exist, it being an iceberg of hostility beneath the service, like the mafia. It goes on, hate is too strong of a word for it, bad will is closer, contempt hits another aspect, intolerant, over involved gets it some, all of this goes on underneath the too often volatile surface like lava, and like molten it services in a fury from time to time.

I wondered why they kept putting them selves through that, they might have been there for one another on the most superficial levels, but underneath the laughter, great food, stories, ultra-cleanliness there was much tunneling under the others souls. Burrowing into, hollowing each other souls without to much love, of any genuine support. But something was there. Still love in the very deep depths of the heart comes out through the stormy weather, an invisible force, like evaporation. I needed a hopeful ending, part of me knows that I will find a way, things are as they are, I can only change myself, how I relate.

New world

We are creation. There is no doubt that we are creation. Even more than creation, we are creation making creation even more real, in our own unique way. We are time and space, being and becoming. I am not certain as how to say this but we are, we are, we always were, we always will be. This life is only the beginning of the endlessness that we are.

To create, to bring the new world about, to embody it, to summons it, we must be it in everything we do. What is this new world, this new life, it is every one being sincere on every level and every one treating every one as if they are the greatest person ever, which we all are. This is the new world that we will now give to every one, we have to be it, we really have to be it, always, no faking, no hiding, no part of the way, be it, all out with everyone, even with those that are against this new world, just as the old cells of the chrysalis are against the new cells of the transformation to wings, that is why we must be it for those who will destroy it, misuse it, bend it for their own warped ends, for they will steal from us, use it on someone who will use it on their children. For the child this is the only human inter face their stunted parents relate to them through.

Some of the bad use it for bad, most use it for good, even when the bad use it for bad on their children, their children sense something behind it, a good in their world of misery beyond their parents; they sense that this did not originate from their mean parents and look for the origin of this liberating force that validates what they sense, and it becomes real for them, not another illusion that their abusive parents can knock or yell away in anger or buy away in lack of real effort.

In the movie the gray, men face death, some consciously believe in an after life, others do not, through the pain and trials some spontaneously come t

In the movie the gray, men face death, some consciously believe in an after life, others do not, through the pain and trials some spontaneously come to their own understanding or experience of death. A pack of wolves is pursuing them, almost for certain they are not going to make it, but still they go on trying as our human instincts compel us. This leads to some of the more basic ideas of the movie, Alfa, dominance, strength and courage, how we face death is intertwined with how we face life. On a more primal level, we create our own phoenix, our own rebirth by how we face death. Unconsciously we all have our own allegiance, understanding of life, death and the after life.

Life is alive

Life is alive, life has its source, its depths and heights that are far beyond anything that holds are identity weather or not our current identity is pleasant for us. Life brings into alignment what we desire, what we imagine, what is dear to us, what we yearn for, what we give energy to, what we want; one of the ways to live a more fulfilling life is to examine your emotions, feelings, beliefs about your self, about life, about the world, society, your past, about love, what love is, what love is not, your beliefs about your beliefs.

As you do this reflection you also weed out distorted false believes, imprints, and patterns that were put into you before you had a chance to consciously except them or reject them; life will manifest what you do not want, what you do not desire along with what you do, because both are in you. However your intent, and what you give a sustained conscious effort to while holding onto your depths while wisely discerning your daily life and acting on the miracles that most see as liabilities, or something too great for them, or delusions, is what makes the difference, appreciating others works is needed as well, all great people expanded on others works, others feelings (This is where spirit, emotions, feelings, and practical reality intersect and expand)
Also by examining painful feelings, memories and unresolved issues of your past you are not increasing the pain or negativity of the past energy, you are redirecting this stuck and dormant energy, you are releasing it, freeing it, the life, the energy is no longer or less marooned in the past which is always alive with unlived life, unexpressed life. You are freeing your self from your past by examining the energy, the sources of your pain. To use a metaphor, your reception will not weekend, if you get rid of your bad appts on your device or if you update appts that are no longer useful to you as they currently are. To put it a different way, you are giving energy to your life if it is mostly in the spirit of freeing your self from unfulfilling, unloving and unproductive ways of being. ( In this struggle, in this spirit of expanding, integrating, and purifying your self you are helping others as well,) If the positive manifest more quickly than the negative you are going forwards, practice giving energy to what you want and freeing your self from what you have out grown.

No matter what your obligations are or what is pressing, no matter what needs to be done, no matter what is pressing you, demanding your attention, ( keeping obligations to children is an exception for this decree not an excuse) give your creativity, time and energy to what you want, to those things you want most, believe in them see them; see what feelings friends, family and others bring up in you, see them, if they hinder you, know their limits, except them where they are at, do not try to make them fit what you imagined them to be, your efforts are better spent finding as well as cultivating your own supports, people that are able as well as receptive to assist you in manifesting your depths, your dreams, people that you stand on deeper intrinsic common ground with and are reaching for similar heights.

Streak across time

How to describe it, our existence is but a streak across time, however our life does not end, nor does it start with the particular ego you are presently acting in. Our many existences are but a streak across history. Our soul here is like a whale, swimming across the see of time, yet going to the depths of infinity, when it surfaces for air, there is your self, it goes down, that ego dies, yet you still are just as much, perhaps more, it comes up you are born again. The longitude and latitude slightly change, all is the same, all is different. This streak does not begin with this universe, nor does it end with it.

Fed up with the attitude of a system of indifference

People are fed up with the attitude of a system of indifference that uses them as objects to be manipulated to maintain a statusquo that intimidates and coerces people to serve its one-sided ends. People went along with it to maintain their life, their relationships, their families, in short, to adopt, they knew that it was unjust as well as out of touch, but it was sold as the best of all inperfect systems. But now the huberous of those entrusted to control the system is too much too bare and the citizens humanity is not being fulfill, and their human dignity is viewed as a histrionic element. So now we see our financial and political leaders in the light of their own greed that has broken the system, as the spoiled narcissist of the wealthy, and cunning who put their own life stile above the country and people that made their position possible. People want their humanity and dignity back as well as their life and are now willing to expose the hypocrisy of the con-artist.

As you go through life.

As you go through life you create a spirit, a force of attraction, as an adult a great deal of what you do in the process of individuation (and in therapy) is weed out the bad programming, the no longer useful attractor patterns of your past, while at the same time you expand on the attractor patterns that are beneficial for your expansion and for the emergence as well as the cultivation of latent forces in you, the more actively you engage in this, the more you make a path of least resistance for others, that is you positively influence others while you ad to the culture. The best results of this is that you give the children of your and future generations a better start, they go through life more free from outdated and destructive forces and more able to recognize as well as express the life affirming forces in themselves.

We all are an unique interpretation, and embodiment of creation, of God, we increase, expand, deepen and reify our depths, as well as all of creation

We all are an unique interpretation, and embodiment of creation, of God, we increase, expand, deepen and reify our depths, as well as all of creation in moments when we love sincerely, when we are true to our core. We are constantly creating, individually and collectively a matrix of experiences that more fully accommodate, reflect our innermost longings, desires and perceptions.

They never were.

If some one does not respect you, does not or can not appreciate your soul, your depths your feelings, emotions, ideas, if all they want to do is sell you something and when you do not play along they turn on you, then the hell with them, go on with your life, they never were, really they never were. I am just not saying it, they never were. Though they appeared to be a parent, spouse, lover, friend, they were an illusion, at best they were a bad dream that taught you to be more honest with your self, to respect cherish and appreciate your depths and others as multilayered beings that have an inner life.

Each of us is creation. Each of us is a core of creation.

Each of us is creation. Each of us is a core of creation, in our center, in the core of our center we are perfect, at peace, yet very dynamic, our centers interact with others centers in perfect harmony, in a state of fluid living dynamic where exchange is vitalizing and effortless, yet these processes are unconscious, without intent, without volition.

Just before we die, we realized that we are more than are bodies, our form here, our life, our existence is our intent, as well as the sum total of our intents, in both voltage and Amps. The degree for which our intent matches our core is the degree for which we have continuity in the next stage of our collective strivings.

We are not born to die. We are born to be born.

Some of us were not born to die, it is not that some are ordain, predestined, some existed before, some came into existence with a message, they were not born to die, but born for some continuity, to go on, some part transfigurates, some aspects are the same, more perfected but the same..

To a dear friend

One thing I learned in my life is that miracles happen for those who believe, who have patience, learn who they are, and see the blessing in stresses, and are generous with their joy. (How their so called weaknesses guide them, as well as add to their spiritual algorithm more complexities and more powers to assist others as well as creation.

We are under the impression that strain and pushing are the way and or to get into seemingly impossible situations which force us to summons the strength to live, to get past, the obstacles, to survive. This was perhaps how we obtain our tools in the past, our religions, spiritual practices and cultural traditions.

There is another way, we are in a blossomed portion of the tree of life. Most of what is real we do not perceive with our senses. Imagination is our guiding force. It both creates the reality of our life and puts us in it. It is time to imagine other worlds for our selves and together, more loving, exciting, adventurous, passionate worlds, realms, existences.We are gathering more of our imagination, more insight, more passion, more will, more spirit of creation itself. In each life, here, as well as to come we are living out more of creation together.

Away from confusion

As you see, we never die. Change dimension, big transition, faster than prenatal unconscious aware instant. There you are, nice review, what you do, insight for you, light forever, yet beginning anew.

Great love, appreciation, intense feelings, powerful sublime emotion. I do not believe I am the best this time. I will love very strong. This time more discernment, incarnate into less anxiety.

Do not get caught up in the allusions stay aware.
Be in the eternal instant, be with those on your level, stay true to your center, that is how you enter, this keeps you away from confusion.

What great and brave beings we are

What great and brave beings we are, we give of our selves to people, to humans as infants, as children, to be born from them, into their care, we allow our selves to be so vulnerable, so much trust in those who them selves are in flux, in a world in flux. Did some of us who once made it out of here simply extend out too far once it was over, once we were liberated and lost our selves, became unconscious again in desires that embodied us once more? Do these desires wrap them selves around another desire, a desire for a fuller expression of being, of ones innermost depths, so that we can give and receive such currants of depths with other beings; of imagining, of further imagining, of creating the conditions for such depths of being to be manifest, expressed, shared, harmonized, synthesized, with continuity, yet over and over again each time a little different, each time a little more fulfilling. By imagining this to come about, by making this come about, we come about. We transfigurate creation, each other as well as our selves.

Genesis of its self

The universe, creation is full of genesis of its self. The infinite comes into itself a new through the finite. Each finite expands the infinite, one dimension of this expansion here is that the infinite becomes more conscious. In general life cycles of beings are patterns of the collective unfolding. Once a particular type of being reaches its limits, say human, death comes in and it begins again. ) We all come from creation from source, from the infinite , when we come into being from this, what is loved, awakened nurtured in the finite becomes, expands, alters the reality, the stratum, the world it is born into. As we give to life that is born here anew into creation, so it is.

As you give as adults,you create the force you will die into, the bardo, and the new realm you will be in, or the new life you will be born into.

As you know we are time, eternity as well as infinity. We are creation, we are being, existence, existence is shared being with other beings, with other becomings. We are deepening and widening are experience of creation, of our self, of one another. We are becoming more able to express creation in our own unique way as well as more profoundly appreciate being awakened to our selves and creations living depths by other beings expressions of creation.

What you hold in the center of your being, with intent, with a desire to make real, with a conscious effort to make real becomes real. It is real, it always has been real. It is finding the right time of place to manifest through.
I am a uniqueness becoming more awakened, more able to experience, express and manifest life, love, abundance, wisdom, creation, harmony great wealth and prosperity. My pain teaches me to be more empathic with other beings, to learn to assist them in over coming obstacles and perceived limitations. Assist others to find love, joy and abundance in their infinite power of creation.

I teach others to obviate all of life's needless, suffering, pain, conflicts and distractions, I teach others to live a life of joy, love, harmony and abundance.

draft

As we are being raised, as our minds, brains, and bodies are being formed, those who have the most influence on us are being stressed on many levels. These external stresses become internalized into our neurological and psychological formation. Through out our formation or development these stresses run interference in us. (as we become mature, processes of the mind generally become less automatic, on the other hand the I that experiences life, this sense of self becomes more intentional.)

We human beings pick up on language without much if any effort. We perpetuate all of the syntactic evolutions of the particular language we inherited in our own unique way with all of its strengths and limitation. The undercurrent to all the above is that without knowing it we carry out a false agenda, we become Trojan horses with out knowing it. Behind our sense of self, our identity, our goals, our beliefs, our values, our intentions, what we hold to be sacred and true, behind all of this we are unconsciously carrying out our parents, our culture's our race's, and our economic class immaturities, prejudices, hatreds) in deference to our own temperament and person attributes,

There is a unspoken taboo about self awareness, of being your own self agent, of being centered enough, calm enough, strong enough, deep enough, intentional enough to form a sense of self that reflects your own intrinsic reality and of expressing, of experiencing your unique sense of self, your unique personal reality.

Infants of being.

What great and brave beings we are, we give of our selves to others as infants, as children, to be born from them, into their care, we allow our selves to be so vulnerable, so much trust in those who them selves are in flux, in a world in flux. Did some of us who once made it out of here simply extend out too far once it was over, once we were liberated and lost our selves, became unconscious again in desires that embodied us once more? Do these desires wrap them selves around another desire, a desire for a fuller expression of being, of ones innermost depths, so that we can give and receive such currants of depths with other beings; of imagining, of further imagining, of creating the conditions for such depths of being to be manifest, expressed, shared, harmonized, synthesized, with continuity, yet over and over again each time a little different, each time a little more fulfilling. By imagining this to come about, by making this come about, we come about. We transfigurate creation, each other as well as our selves.

We help others save them selves from them selves. Most people were misunderstood as children as a result they had to deal with their parents darkne

We help others save them selves from them selves. Most people were misunderstood as children as a result they had to deal with their parents darkness, neglect, as well as (intentional and or unintentional) tormenting ways to some degree. Our parent's ways, their hostility, their darkness has become part of us, for better and for worse. Children need plenty of love, attention, kindness, understanding, patients and time, if they do not get it they blame them selves for their parent's lack of involvement; if we were a child in such of a situation we would think, "I hate my self, I am the worse person in the world, I will destroy my self." Many children think this way in different forms and variations. For most adults such experiences and thoughts are the brick and mortar as well as the structure of their character and personality; much fake good runs over this high way of self, of ego, much false productivity and much, much to much suffering.
Get rid of the vampires and see how you will thrive. Anthony Cavuoti

Self becomes life

In the universe certain galaxies and settings in them seem to be right from the start for an abundance of life to flourish. For an on looker of this cosmic process it seems like a random unfolding. The grape sweetening in the sun, all of the conditions of creation have been materialized just for this, just for Rome, just for you. Existence pulls creation to manifest, to materialize, this is call life. The potential of the inner ecological system becomes partly manifest, (here existence becomes life,) expanding this inner potential into the outer manifestation is evolution. Not the ego, but the self is coterminous with the universe, its manifestation and design for unfolding, as well as the many potentials of its unfolding. The selves that we are, the selves that we are more fully becoming, our inner design is part of the expanding and unfolding design of the universe.

Our imagination is the bridge for which this manifesting process happens. Faith is the firmness to make it so, discipline is the focus to complete the steps to make is so. Your belief in who you are and your courage to act on it puts it all together, sets the conditions for you to reify your depth, to experience your depths, to reify your innermost being, to be more fully an awaken designer of creation it self, in this life and in all worlds to come.

Through concentration of inner essence we go extremely far,

We are unique embodiments of the light of creation as well as reflectors of it individually and collectively. The more we line up collectively the more powerful we are. (Sometimes we line up collectively through common goals and or attributes, math, discipline, structure, competitiveness, recognition, hence micro processors.) How to use micro processors to serve the present status quo or humanity are other attributes. We create the means outside of the light to find and perfect ways of expressing these divine forces. The more we carry the light in us the more we, penetrate the collective resistance or ignorance to express creation and harmonize with others, personally through our works or both. Many people do this unconsciously. We are the tree in the sun light, gathering powers and resources of the light to expand the life force in our life here.

We do not die

We do not die, instead we live a discontinuous existence. This life here, my body, my thoughts, memories, feelings, what I am physically, once this is over it is over. Anything else is just an allusion. When we die it is over, nothing is going to recreate us, make us again. Restore us to what we are. It is over the end. No more. End of story. Final curtain. The dirt sleep. Or is it.

Could not resonances of this life carry over to our next life, be with us in the after life, in the life between llives. Could it be a process analogous to dreams? Could parts of your life continue in another existence after death in the same way aspects of you continue in your sleep, to different degrees. Part of your life as a child continues periodically when you dream at night, parts of you as a young man and or woman continue in your dreams. Images and deep connections you have with creation and or the divine, depending on your perspective, continue when you are dreaming. Though you are not you, you are you, brought to life again.

It is a beginning, of the beginning.

To live and die and to love again, it is a beginning, of the beginning.None existence is infinity, is eternity, of infinity to eternity.But in this you are, and once you are, the deeper you are, the more you are forever more, of awakening, to infinity, to eternity The cycle is again, ever more, of your infinity, of your awakening to your eternal now, through out finite, through out infinity.


It is a beginning, of the beginning

It is more than what is on ink

The shock at the end, it is your friend; it will awaken you to be again. You will see through the veil, Yes your anxieties and fears will fade away, death is a form of play, some came here to runaway, others to pay, the price for seeing paradise or nothing another way. Our death is a thrill, all desires fulfilled, weather you are the worse of sinners or the greatest of saints. But you will be reformed by how you perceive weather or not you believe, what you did cultivate will still propel you as you relate to existence of none-existence-on the other side. Forget about karma and dharma, and we are more than the resurrect, there is no judgment day only another way, your longings create what you will be again. There is no hell, only degrees of well, there is no pain, there is no shame, there is no blame, no more illusions to maintain. It is pure consciousness, individuality, harmony and peace, with currants of bliss, love surrounded by souls you know well of degrease of color and light, complimenting each other while brightening the light, you might want to stay in this delight, but you just might, want to expand the light, so you and your circle create darkness from your depths, of what could be, of what is in you that dares to live, that dares to shake creation again, so we light our night, our dark depths that our out of light, that is us here on earth all right.

Unique

Every one has a unique core, they have powers that are outside the realm of evolution, in fact this power is not just the director of their life but of evolution and creation itself. Another way of looking at it is that every person has the ability to make miracles happen.

From God to God once more

In deep peaceful sleep and death we are with God. We are the fish, God is all great lakes and oceans and we peacefully exist in him.

In this life others needs of us awaken us from sleep.

In death other souls, loved ones and worlds might enchant us to go out down a stream, or river, away from gods center, away from our home, out of the lake and that life will be just as real as where we are now. From God to God once more.

Working on one's soul is truly alchemy.

Working on one's soul is truly alchemy. The dreams come to me as nightmares, but as I give them form and refinement they reciprocate the effort back to me, transforming my life, relationships and pursuits.

They find me and I find them

My book, my stories, not of my life but as metaphors for my soul are my guides, they come to me in their raw inspirational living concepts. They give me the confidence to go into the world and make my stand, fire my curiosity, lead me into my soul and into others, into life with compassion, strength direction and guidance, They find me and I find them, together we find life.

Life is more than what we know

You see life is more than what we know it to be, more than what we imagine it to be. We are part of the very processes of life, of creation it self, as well as an infinite whole of it that is expanding, integrating and, evolving, we are one of the very cores of creation, doing the creating, while simultaneously being created. We are here now; we are part of the processes of existence its self. We are more than expanding; we are integrating, consolidating, vivifying as well as activating what we are. We never die, (if death means to be no more or not to exist consciously any more) we are eternal, we are forever and forever more. We change forms, forget, start over, remember, go on to higher grounds and more expansive conscious ways of being and begin again while continuing. This eternal continuity and well as discontinuity. This discontinuation.

We are more than what we realize.

2005

The point is that we are more than what we realize. It is not that we have an external or internal locus of control. It is a matter of owning ourselves. Actively discovering as well as accepting our full powers and abilities as they come to us while cultivating them as fully as possible. As well as discovering and extricating ourselves from the forces that hinder us. Actively examining our selves so that we are not unknowingly the means for which ignorance and outdated ways of being are not transmitted to the next generation and others through us. There is a psychologist, Alice Miller for those who are not familiar with her, for over twenty years she has had the courage to share her ingenious observations openly, especially in her writings that deal with how and the ways in which our western culture is very hostel towards children and infants. At present she acknowledges that our culture has made some strivings in the last twenty years towards respecting children and infants as human beings with rights, especially with the right not to be abused in any way, especially not to be abused with the rationalization that the abuse was for the child's own good, but we still have a long way to go.

She was one of the insightful leaders who realized even before it was scientifically proven that emotional abuse of any kind causes real and Permanente brain damage in children that thwarts their emotional development. She also described how a child's body stores the abuse inflicted on him or her. How the trauma of the abuse is stored in the body of the adult who was abused as a child and how such of a person is always charge with the trauma of the abuse as long as the abuse remains concealed from them. Such people are analogous to highly charged atmospheric conditions, and a person that is weaker and or more vulnerable is a lightening rod; this is the way to keep the memories of the real abuse down, to do the same thing to someone else, abuse someone weaker than you in an socially acceptable way, and rationalize it to yourself and to the child or person you are abusing as being for their own good.

Therapy

I am a therapist. When I am not with my children, writing, reading or socializing I see clients. Most of the clients that I see have suffered a severe trauma. By me listening to them empathically, I mean being there with them emotionally, while providing them with the support, understanding, not fearing to follow them to their pain and dark places, they are able to free themselves for a while from the experiences that marooned them in terror, shame, gilt and regret. After this they naturally express what they must do to heal them selves and what is in them and in their environment that they believe is hindering them. The following sessions I support them in following through with what they know is best for them as they continue to tell their account. If a client is really motivated to help themselves, the sessions take on a life of its own. I then assist the client in recognizing and appreciating resources, strengths and abilities that they might have not appreciated or known that they possess. From here they help them selves, and the hindrances fade. They try to give me the credit but I let them see that from my depths I reflected them back to them selves. Such appreciation is liberating, emboldens and centers people, coping is a secondary process that naturally comes when one engages life more deeply and profoundly.

reify

He is where he has always been, with the lovely souls. The supremely beautiful music, the pure clarity of the endless colors and insightful lovely intent of all. He conveys with the lovely souls perfectly, with clarity, the entirety of all that he has experienced, it is now clear to them, the degree for which descending reflects ones very essence is the degree for which it will transfigurate the souls here, as well as the foundations of creation.

This is the power he brought to light, this ability was a desire that he had but it was not his intent. The effects of his intent are many. There are now more lovely souls here that have always been here, then ever before. He has connected realms that have been segregated. Now the souls in the material worlds are not lost, trapped in a cycle that exaggerates their despairs. Such souls now come back to themselves in worlds that more fully reflect the celestial realm, and are places of awakening, of reifiying and of not bonding but real intimacy, not of ongoing nightmares or dreams of blissful self deception.

Shores of ineffable beauty

There are endless shores of ineffable beauty, familiar shores, presences out over the ocean of dreams, deaths, births, and transfigurations waiting to welcome you to be in their realm once more,with ceaseless love, freedoms, excitements, living depths that flow freer than the wind, even for a fleeting instant. Today you are making your life and this world a welcoming oasis for those here, those coming here and for your self. You shall dream of this life of you in other worlds, of its feelings, sounds, joys, inspirations that live on in rays of beings, re-being with loved ones, many of whom you do not know of as yet, still you shall be once more with them over again. Each trip more aligned with your innermost nature, each time more enchanting.

I am always in wonder, in deep awe and appreciation when I see some patients deal with their pain, generational pain that landed harder on them than a meteor the size of a small planet. The burdened, injustices, would crush most, yet they go on in their pain, life, love; all of us have such burden to some degree; the human spirit is truly amazing in its invincibility that creation it self is in wonder of .

Trust your your inner most being.

Trust your senses, your feelings, and your intuitions; have these great resources of you serve your soul, your inner most being. You find it by taking your inner life seriously through your self encounters with life. Most people are lost to them selves, most are a collection of distortions resulting from bad parenting that becomes more deeply concealed and perpetuated throughout life. Most people are illusions, built on illusions, desperately clinging to dreams, ideals and goals not to help humanity, not to fulfill something deeply intrinsically satisfying, but to ward off the pain of past traumas. God, will such tell you what you should do and point out all of your many imperfections you just must improve.

Weather we know it or not we are gods

Weather we know it or not we are gods that can make just about anything happen. We bring to form and life many marvels into our existence, at a faster and faster pace. We are the sorcerers that can summons, that manifest the hitherto unknown into our personal lives. We are the same as our cultural icons, which were heretics before they were icons. Such individuals determined to find the unknown seemingly stumbled upon it accidentally while in a long hard struggle that seemed to be in vain because the truth that they sought to uncover was an allusion or too far out of reach. Then as it were, serendipity stepped in, seemingly solely by accident, without any viable causal connection, their truth that they struggled with without any significant results to obtain fell right into their lap. To an outsider it was a miracle or they were very lucky; except the life itself of the person doing the stumbling onto and into the unknown. Did they really stumble or did they push them selves into their very truth.

I am free, spontaneous and alive.

I am free, spontaneous and alive. I am deeply alive to myself, to my being and to creation. I am alive, when I am in accordance with my self hitherto unknown resources are recognized, are released while nuance and raw power are both activated in abundance, giving one the opportunity, strength and condition to bring ones desires to complete fulfillment.

Children are the very core of creation

Children are the very core, the very center of creation, they are god alive; they are the very essence of the inner most being of god; they are divine mind; that is they are beautiful, free, brilliant fun souls, with lovely, alive joyous imaginations and being. We adults with our so called higher cognition are the protectors of them. Our attitude towards children is our attitude towards god and gods attitude towards us.

Every time we love sincerely

1/30/2010
Every time we love sincerely, from our depths, from our core, not only do such moments exist forever but they create gaps, they are pure inspiration, of life of life, they become gaps in time and place, that metamorphose the very laws and processes of manifest creation to be more in accordance with the harmonized state of being of paradise. Such experiences are of spirit, are inspiration, and are soul's fulfillment.Such moments purify past incarnations and guide future embodiments.
Every time you love sincerely you change the universe. You help it be more of what it is meant to be

Paradise, awakened infinity.

Eternity, unconscious infinity

Depths

As we know our depths more we are better able to seek and create experiences that satisfy it, our core, our essence, the design of our very self. As we do this in life we create relationships and other means by which we can fulfill our soul, our innermost being in a functional way in our daily life. Neither awareness nor life ends with death. In death we infuse our awareness with the very core of creation itself, we become more a part of the very laws and the very counsel that are the processes and governing processes by which we incarnate our self and unfold our destiny through in our next incarnation. The degree for which you are aware is the degree for which you create and control the economy of your next incarnation.


No matter what happens, how we treat life, is how life treats us. Sometimes instant karma, other times it takes a while.


Life

Some scholars of certain ancient eastern texts who understand modern physics interpret such writings as saying that each time god exhales the universe begins - the big bang - and when god inhales the universe is drawn back into its source - the big crunch. So the endless beginnings and endings of the universe is god's breathing. I like to think that in-between breaths - that wondrous pause between inhale and exhale we are fully deep in god's bosom once more. That eternal space, were time and longing are quenched as one. Where all of the hearts and souls' possibilities are played out, experienced in a grand harmonic conversion. All is as it should be, and in the pinnacle of this endless praise we are drawn - perhaps we could stay if we so desire, but we become enthralled with anticipation. We want to be part of that exhale once more so as to reify ourselves in that grand vacuous dispersement where randomness and chance struggle against choice, vague recollections and sublime emotions, all of which are mediated by survival and discernment.