darkness of the past

Most people were misunderstood as children as a result they had to deal with their parents darkness, neglect, as well as (intentional and or unintentional) tormenting ways to some degree. Our parent's ways, their hostility, their darkness has become part of us, for better and for worse. Children need plenty of love, attention, kindness, understanding, patients and time, if they do not get it they blame them selves for their parent's lack of involvement; if we were a child in such of a situation we would think, "I hate my self, I am the worse person in the world, I will destroy my self." Many children think this way in different forms and variations. For most adults such experiences and thoughts are the brick and mortar as well as the structure of their character and personality; much blindness of ambition runs over this high way of self, of ego, much productivity and much, much too much suffering.