All acts of Violence stem from child-abuse, insidious forms of child abuse;

All acts of Violence stem from child-abuse, insidious forms of child abuse; the abusive parent and abuse child are not even aware of this most of the time. The adult child perpetrates what was done upon them. They come up with all sorts of rationales. Just like the people that think spankings, shaming and depriving love is Okay, come up with all sorts of seemingly logical and sophisticated rationales. Most of our brain development happens from pre- natal to four years: Once damage is done it this part of the brain forever, the cerebral cortex higher functioning simply rationalizes the destructive impulses. The abused child is forced to fight this headwind for the rest of their life. By facing our own child abuse, neglect and all its insidious forms and we really feel what we felt as children, not what we were told to feel or think we should feel, than we no longer perpetrate and we are able see through of the mendacity, manipulations, destructive games and ignorance of others.

Reify our depths

For better and worse or both, how we felt before birth, intra uterusly, as an infant, as a child are the impressions we carry for the rest of our life. Blessed our those that go through life with this tale wind. But the vast majority of of us have a headwind, dealing with so called loved ones hostel, and ambiguous attitudes right from the start. The damage is made and set for life. Denial of this only makes for a life of distortions and illusions that is a life of denial. We end up believing we are in love with our distortions. We destroy each other by trying to make our distortions work. We go to work for our distortions, we marry our distortions, we idealize are distortions. That is why we self-destruct. That is why you have so many symptoms. That is why you're depressed. Is why you drink so much. Is why you are on medications. That is why you are so irritated. That is why you want so much materialistically, in a vain attempt to fill is void. But we want to be with someone that loves us for us, as we really are, who excepts us when we are in our real emotional states. Think about that, how real that is. We need to be with Someone that loves us not for what we project which takes constant effort, which is not the self but an effort of the self; to flourish we need someone that sees us, that except that cherishes us for how we really are, in our default mold, which is our early impressions. Which for most of us is not a pretty picture. The active persona that we cultivate later in life is our representative. The more our representative represents us, and not our ideal self , the more real satisfaction we will experience. It takes wisdom, intellect, and a deep desire to live your life to except this. Your life could seem to be very successful, very interesting but if it is not your life, you have no real life. First we have to see ourselves. We cannot see our own eyes in our own face. So we need to be around people that really love us for us. A Big house can not make up for lack of authenticity. Sex all the time, will not make up for lack of authenticity. All the money in the world will never make up for lack of authenticity. All the fame in the world cannot make up for lack of authenticity. Very famous rich and successful Actors are committing suicide, think about it! This distorted and jaded imprinting that we have for life is not a tragedy, it is a constant reminder not to play the game so much where you take it as real, it enables you to see it as it is, a distorted part of a process, yours is not to master the game instead it is to remake the game, to increase its range of human expression, to make it more human, too deepen it and expand the definition of humanity, even if the world does not want to play our game which is not a game, we live our truth anyways for a portion of the world that is ready to free them self, we make our own pocket of sanity. This forces us to tap deeper into a higher self, to be more attuned to our debts self, too more fully identify with our deeper nature, the layers of us that are not born in this life and that do not dissolve in his life, instead this dimension of us, increases through this life. This side of us is closer to our core. The more we live authentically from such debts the more we reifies a deeper portion of our individual subjective depths, that resonate in us for eternity. When we are true to our core, we now only tranforn our very life, we set the conditions, we set the switches for you high or human faculties to emerge, this allowed others to more fully manifest their uniqueness, less distractions, less distortions, less materialistic and ornamentation. Copyright © 2015 Anthony Cavuoti All Rights Reserved

Thank you

LA County got sued Because the resource classes weren't doing anything for the dyslexic students in them They would just vegetate When I was in high school the black girls in the class read my poems Read my short stories They seen me Encourage me to believe in myself, Seen my strengths see my powers Seen through the false reflections, and distortions of the school. Of the adults The black girls would not let me be anything less then what I was meant to be They would not let my or the adult world false reflections diminish me They see my future self and encourage me I worked on my short stories in the resource class I worked on my book in the resource class with them I dreamt of my future self Now I am a therapist much later life, I'm a professional writer I am a father I'm a competent professional She recognized me just like they recognize me She would not let me hide from myself just like they would not let me high for myself I'm forever thankful and grateful Voice to text draft Anthony cavuoti

Mistaken familiarity

She was Abused by her father emotionally going up. But she could not admit this to herself because she depended on him financially. And he appear to others to be so wonderful. Is there any wonder why she cannot present relationship but the person she is with is emotionally abusive. Mistaken familiarity for normality, constantly going back to the Trumatic feeling thinking that's a form of attachment or love Anthony Cavuoti voice to text draft

The antidote,real emotion attuned

Children and teenagers that where abuse, neglected, sexually harassed used their sexuality to self regulate them self and re-abuse themselves. They are caught in the network of their brain that was shaped by the abuse. If you Grab a glass when it is being formed you alter it shape for the rest of its existence. As adults they perpetrate and become victims of one another, re abusing one another and satisfying one another while undoing one another. A strange trap. Just like the smell of a cigarette reminds some of good memories of their childhood, A safe place but the sake place is really toxic, many have learn to eat from a poisonous vine, when in fact there are many fines and routes roots that are not poisonous. Drugs and alcohol are another one of these poisonous roots The antidote,real emotion attuned, some one who really loves you, underhand you and you them self. They are able and willing to get to know your depths, see all sides of you. Real self encounters, resisting and not relating and using one another in roles as objects. If you ignorant or in denial this will offend you

The more she expressed her self,

She would say, How much she missed him, how great he was and would have been as a man. I told him to stay inside, do not go out side. I asked him, what do you want me to pick up for you while I am out, he said ice-cream, what does that tell you where he is at. I seen the hurt in her, the depths of her despair, the boundlessness of her love. I said innocence. Yes innocence, he was still a child. Even though he was seventeen years old he was still an innocent child inside. Than I come back to see the road blocked and I new something was wrong, I could feel it. Just new, my heart sank. Than later I had to deal with doctors and nurses treating him like an object at the hospital while he was in the coma. Pulling the plug, no concern for my feelings, how he meant everything to me. After such, my heart, my soul was shattered. Later I would meet someone else, this other lady at places she knew. She would speak about the sufferings she experience, felt as a child. The abuse she experience as a teenager and young lady. The lingering devastation of the abuse she experienced in her last relationship. The more she expressed her self, the more she feels, the more I am able to be connected to her, I always wanted to be there for her, am for a while I was. but later not knowing how to find the places where she was at or the many misunderstandings and frustrations of the day of a dyslexic and my pride, my ego would flare up, and I was not me, but pain instead, not being there for her but venting my pain. Copyright © 2015 Anthony Cavuoti All Rights Reserved

Black lives matter.

Black lives matter. She would say, How much she missed him, how great he was and would have been as a man. I told him to stay inside, do not go out side. I asked him, what do you want me to pick up for you while I am out, he said ice-cream, what does that tell you where he is at. I seen the hurt in her, the depths of her despair, the boundlessness of her love. I said innocence. Yes innocence, he was still a child. Even though he was seventeen years old he was still an innocent child inside. Than I come back to see the road blocked and I new something was wrong, I could feel it. Just new, my heart sank. Than later I had to deal with doctors and nurses treating him like a object at the hospital while he was in the coma. Pulling the plug, no concern for my feelings, how he meant everything to me. Copyright © 2015 Anthony Cavuoti All Rights Reserved

I wanted you with love

I wanted you with love You are much much more than ecstasy and pleasure.

I don't care what they say about what goes down in the zebra

Dyslexics might misunderstand things, but in doing so we really perceive things. I don't care what they say about what goes down in the zebra I don't care what you do You are perfect just as you

Stronger

Yes stronger, and stronger Stronger every day Longer A little longer You know this feeling just will stay. Stronger and stronger, Stronger is my way Stronger and stronger nothings in my way stronger and stronger I lost the silly way. stronger and stronger new horizons of the day.

Outter events are only suggestive not reflective.

The world does not reflect us We have an inner sun that is always shining from within. Love yourself no matter what! Copyright © 2015 Anthony Cavuoti All Rights Reserved

She is from the future and from the pass, she is the parentheses of sanity in our insane time.

Her future self, her soul would from time to time chime in, speak to me through what ever distortions or frustrations she had with me or with herself. She is an advance soul, a more polished being masquerading as a stormy lady, as a broken toy, but she is a very Wise, powerful and lovely female shaman. The full power of her spirit I did not see until it was too late. She is from the future and from the pass, she is the parentheses of sanity in our insane times. She's unconscious of this most of the time in a pedestrian trance but she is so advance so, so very advance. She inspired me, she came to me,, woken me, she healed me, she taught me, seduce me, strengthen me, reflected me, amplified me, broke me, made me, she warned me, she guided me perfectly when I needed her and in a preternatural flow and rhythm of a Goddess that forgot she is a goddess. But her songs, her soul comes through the faultlines of her human vulnerabilities, fallibilities.

technology should serve man, instead man is now serving technology

Know this, man first bit from the tree of knowledge rather than the tree of love. We are doing the same thing now with technology, with these computers. could well do better without our addiction to technology. When are technology , outstrips are Humanity, yes. Think of how far our you consciousness and humanity could go if we really live from the heart. technology should serve man, instead man is now serving technology

We are all here to reveal this human potential to one another in our own unique way, through others and our own very frustrating limitations and destructive false perceptions.

We are all here to reveal this human potential to one another in our own unique way, through others and our own very frustrating limitations and destructive false perceptions.

The status quo of the system wants to keep you a worm, a grateful one and for it to be your wings. It does this by having you believe your chrysalis process is a pathology or an act of deviance.

The status quo of the system wants to keep you a worm, a grateful one and for it to be your wings. It does this by having you believe your chrysalis process is a pathology or an act of deviance. The goal if the antichrist is to kill the messiah before he is born. (What could Herod do with a surveillance state.) Or stop the savior from recognizing that he is the messiah. Keep the buddha permanently behind his father’s walls until it's too late. We are unknowingly worshiping and creating the anti Christ every time we are on in some cyber space. I fully understand the irony of this post.

There is more to us than we know.

There is more to us than we know. Most of the time we unconsciously identify with our ego and our perceived social status, when in fact we are co-creators with our generation, with the processes of evolution, with the expanding universe, with all sides of itself seemingly distancing apart when in fact the further they move apart physically on one level the more they are really becoming more integrated, harmonizing and synergizing as well as vivifying in ways that we can not yet perceive and imagine. We are coterminous and co creators with creation; this is a fact that can never be changed. All of us are the very core of creation itself always expanding out with one another in greater, deeper and wider ranges of harmony, sophistication, and imaginings. Our desires lead the way for us to keep coming to one another in unexpecting ways through enthralling encounters, more passionate enriched lives with one another over and over. We have falsely identified with the artificial dirt around us, thinking this is being grounded and normal instead of in our very being, soul, which has been and will always be the very core of all creation itself. Copyright © 2015 Anthony Cavuoti All Rights Reserved

There are many cross currents in us, so many.

There are many cross currents in us, so many. What we identify with as our self is a ephemeral social construct that has no lasting substance, unless you give it a purpose to your depths, and is a source of real life, which is a force greater than biological life, it creates the conditions of greater more fulfilling imaginings of life. There is taboo about identifying with your depths, of knowing your self and those that you are most profoundly connected to. Copyright © 2015 Anthony Cavuoti All Rights Reserved

Take root in your soul, not in others issues.

Take root in your soul, not in others issues.

She'll be safer that way, right!

Let's get Mary Magdalene to put a restraining order on him. She'll be safer that way, right!

Hide go seek.

We still play hide go seek. As adults this is nothing unique. But don't hide from yourself. Don't be so lost and can't be found. Don't take refuge In the games you play. For you just pushing your truth away You're losing time and that is the real. Copyright © 2015 Anthony Cavuoti All Rights Reserved

All of my writing is art, not Chronicles.

All of my writing is art, not Chronicles. It takes one to be sensitive to the ambiguities of life. It takes intelligence and reflection to be able to absorb my writings as well as a living rich inner life. For those of you that do, Thank you for being you.

She is Beautiful, lovely and far beyond the norm

She is Beautiful, lovely and far beyond the norm That is why she's storm. She's able to really see my soul. Will Always cherish her She's truly all of her sides She is a bumpy but Beautiful ride. Take you to your very core. Destroy you and you will ask for more. For you are more real for having been with her! In a past life I killed the killers, the treacherous in the Civil War She was a native Canadian Blackfoot woman who was subjected to being Chattle. such residence from our past, Residence distort as they amplify. That is why she so real even as she tells her lies. With her the strength and mystery of my soul and passion are reify Copyright © 2015 Anthony Cavuoti All Rights Reserved

The surveillance of your killer and her Killers does not go away.

I faced some of my deepest fears. I cried my most salty tears. I collapsed right into my core. Take your soul over a buck. Take your heart over a fuck. You could gamble with them in how you play, but never never forget your innermost promise to yourself or loose your way. Judas Rome Caesar and Christ. Kennedy was shot more than twice. The surveillance of your killer and her Killers does not go away. Some will really love you, bring you to your self even though they betray you as they betrayed them self.

Without love we slowly die.

Without love we slowly die. when we lack love, we rush time. A race Against this insidious death. And seek instant gratification, in the past it was TV now it's computers, portals of cyberspace, Facebook, Twitter, Instagram soon virtually reality. We go faster and faster. The symptoms of our time. The degree to which we raise children without knowing it, without giving them real love, is a degree for which they will as adults seek instant gratifications, pursue more and more false life and pleasures in cyberspace, and less and less real human contact, experience and relationships; they will not matter much to them, only what they could obtain through them. Marketers and advertisers will make a virtue out of this pathologies, in time the financial pressures will force some scholars to back it. If you feel what you feel and be what you are with excepting people, that do not repress their own issues and perpetrate their issues on you, you slowly heal yourself. Copyright © 2015 Anthony Cavuoti All Rights Reserved

When they do not support our humanity

Power, status, hierarchy, specialization, allure, there is nothing wrong with these forces in them selves, the problem occurs when they do not support our humanity, but become primary and no longer serve our humanity but become ways in which we hide from our self, perpetually distracting us and distancing us from one another, with the illusion that we are really existing in a meaningful way that is conducive to our real best interest. They become a problem for us, us meaning humanity when our primary superficial biological attributes and propensities become tools use by some to manipulate many, but this process has taken on a life of its own and all are now drawn into it and lost. Copyright © 2015 Anthony Cavuoti All Rights Reserved

Through each setback we summons more of the depths of ourselves

Through each setback we summons more of the depths of ourselves, of a deeper spirit, we not only learn about ourselves and strengthen ourselves, we teach, we give hope, we give renewed vigor and vitality to humanity, to go forwards with life in the spirit of love and generosity no matter what!!!!!

More assertive and gentler at the same time.

I have found that I am more assertive and gentler at the same time. I believe this comes from not just more understanding of myself, my nature and human nature, but a deeper understanding of both with a more profound appreciation of the sacredness of this exchange.

I could not resist her

I could not resist her Nor could i participate in her self-destruction

Candy girl, has heart

She is a little crazy, true, and for me game over. Being dyslexic I really experience how people, especially professional and so called normal mature people abuse the most the most vulnerable at their most vulnerable It is so intrinsic to the condescending perverted nature; such sheep, conformist have no regards for the abilities and traits that make dyslexic people so spectacular, they have no shame in the malicious way they cowardly sniper dyslexics through the bureaucratic system. She is dyslexic, hence my deep pathos for her. She had heart, did not care about their standards and rules. Could careless without a thought. The problem is with some people they take this too far, they have no visions or standard. Courage with no compass. But she did have heart. Much heart.

Poisonous roots

You reach a point where you intentionally stop eating and believing that you are getting real nutrition from poisonous roots. (Metaphorically). Or the roots pretended to be there for you but really were not, for what ever reasons, they were preoccupied with their own internal turmoil.This is difficult if you came from a place where the roots were there for you and good for you on some levels but underminding and undoing you on others. When you reach a point where you have the discernment to really tell the difference, deeply, even far beyond cultural and social perception, where your need for self fulfillment outstrips all of them, regardless of how intense or alluring or seductively they present themselves or they make themselves. Copyright © 2015 Anthony Cavuoti All Rights Reserved

Tenderness and longing of my heart

Can my tenderness and longing of my heart ever be embraced, understood. Will I forever be a slave to my exterior, to others misunderstandings and projections of me. Will others always see the monster in Charles Bukowski and not his tender heart. Will I always be a target of emotional assassination, because of my tenderness and daring outside of the conventional. Will these I know and don't know forever try to destroy me on different levels and not comprehend, cherish and nourish my tender longings of my being.

Putting intelligence and gifts over my desires and sentimentality

Putting intelligence and gifts over my desires and sentimentality

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She was my greatest truth for a while.

She was my greatest truth for a while. She taught me not to be afraid of myself, of my nature, to really not care about what others think. Her wild live embracing madness freed me from the suffocating madness of the cowards normality of those that take refuge in standard bearing socially defined roles of maturity and normality. What I fear, what I know. Only the strong and broken of equal power to me are able, are capable and willing to be there for me enough to truly and accurately reflect me back to myself, to allow me to encounter, to know the truth of myself, the real truth, of my powers, needs and wants were I can live out what is really mine and satisfying. Copyright © 2015 Anthony Cavuoti All Rights Reserved

How I feel at times

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Always there

It was so natural, almost no effort, nothing forced. Feeling, surrender, active. Such tenderness, such connection, such passion, it was like swimming in a lovely dream of passion. Once, there, it was as if I was always there.

Coffee table

Her one room studio apartment is small, but it is crowded with her artful style, her humanity. By her bed that we sit on to watch TV there is her white coffee table. She makes these delicious complex meals, we eat on the high small coffee table while watching TV. She has black licorice jelly beans and many other candies set along the far edges of the side of the table away from the bed. . Emergency candy for her diabetes. I can’t resist it. She always keeps the table and the white rug under it so clean. So well kept. She is so vigilant with the table. It is so small but it is her domain, her control. She is so very generous with this small space and so very exacting My heart goes out to her and her tireless efforts on the small table that somehow symbolizes part of her life. Such boundless lovely energy balancing on such of a small space. Somehow she pulls it off. Except for a few well placed looks at times all is so very pleasant, nothing falls.

I followed her into the darkness and got lost.

I followed her into the darkness and got lost but I found my lost side, my dark half. She was more than my fight flight response gone mad. She was my other half.

To the last lady I dated

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Candy Girl

As she puts the glass back on the bar and looks at me she says, You lost something.   I do not know why or how you lost it, but you  lost your real power  that you pretend   you do not possess.  Your  hiding from your self, but you know you lost your balls.  She nonchalantly calls to  the bartender who is very familiar with her to give her another Gin and club soda.  She turns towards me again powerfully.  Now such as in such moments , it is as if she is channeling while seeing through me and into the concealed forgotten chambers of the depths of my soul. Now she has a hold of  a deep subline hidden corner of my soul, of a mysterious bardo depths of such consequence.  Her words sing of truth,  gliding they   carry such profound weight though  her character  can seem questionable at times.  I  am stunned,numbed  and arrested by the unknown source of the certain truths  she knows of me , I  am  thoroughly convinced for certain that my  entire life is being altered by the  conveyances of her utterances.    I feel exposed, ashamed, yet sense that she deeply and truly  adores me.

There are moments of incandescence which I can not explain

There are moments of incandescence which I can not explain. Part of it is the byproduct of a great effort and steadfastness. Still, when I am faced with overwhelming odds, when all seems lost, the depths of my soul calls out for truth, and it is there.

Life, is full of so many unexpected surprises

Life, is full of so many unexpected surprises, they come and go, you are let down hard, it seems as if you will never feel that certain something again, you meet and find what you need and desire and the possibilities of the healing of your pain and the expansion of your more mature longings are there, but now you are so cool with it, you prefer it, not cling to it, in fact you do not trust it, you do not go with it, you keep to your self as you have some fun but you wait, and know you will wait very long, for the pain and trauma had taught you well. And that is enough, which is enough. If this makes no sense, i understand but some day you will come around and see.

Let it speak to you

Each moment is God, that is all eternity, believe in it and yourself and let it speak to you. You have the liberating insight and power to free many.

When you feel what you really feel

When you feel what you really feel; when you allow your self to be guided by your feelings, instead of pretending and saying to yourself that you should not feel such and such a of way, you oriented your self to your truth, that is you have a more real,a deeper and more solid sense of your self. You are true to your real self as well as your needs as you walk on the solid ground of your life, not a fake life or someone else’s life. Copyright © 2015 Anthony Cavuoti All Rights Reserved

people with dyslexia are not imprison by the limits imposed

The laws of nature are different and more subtle and complete than the laws of language. People with dyslexia are not imprison by the limits imposed my the rules and laws of language. They have reality with them, which is magic. Copyright © 2015 Anthony Cavuoti All Rights Reserved

Clarity of being

Life and death, clarity of being, in the eternal cycle of seen and unseen, day and night and all of the degrees of light in-between, Copyright © 2015 Anthony Cavuoti All Rights Reserved

Deeply found even when you hide.

Put yourself in a position where you are not fragmented, where your soul, where your wondrous depths will come through. If you hide from your self in her, and in her sweet desires make certain that it is satisfying and worth the high price you will paid. In fact make certain that she and you are one, that she is more of you than you. From here you are more deeply found even when you hide. Copyright © 2015 Anthony Cavuoti All Rights Reserved

To our self more and more each time.

Each life awakens us more and more, deeper and deeper, to our self more and more each time. We might not see it now, feel it now, understand it now, get the full meaning of it, appreciate it, understand its influences, most likely not, or only very minimally. But each life no matter what contributes to us, our individual evolution and the collective evolution. Each life is like a leaf, and each life is a new leaf on the new tree, a tree in a different country or in a different continent or time or another time or in another world, or on the exact same tree, in the exact same location. The organic leaf it self lives and dies each time, but the essence of it, it’s uniqueness belongs to an ecological system of subtle forces that are part of the changing foundation of time space, and the seen and unseen forces with their many intermittent vaporous manifestations. Copyright © 1993 Anthony Cavuoti All Rights Reserved

My unclear subjective emerging I of me

My unclear subjective emerging I of me is not looking for resolution, meaning, nirvana, heaven, paradise, or non existence, it is simply striving for fulfillment, expression, to fully experience the maximum intensity and radiance of its aliveness, each life is simply increasing the wave of my passions, of my emotions, of the tides of my rising being in which it reached the pinnacle of which I am right now. But this wave has become conscious of itself, and I was born trying to escape it, out run it, but by chance I am body surfing on it, trying not to be thrown off of it as I ride it, to where, I do not know. I sense it, I intuit it, I trust it, even in the storms, most of the time, enough of the time. It is not great acts of heroism, great works of achievement, security, victory and recognition, that resonate most real in us, that give us the most sustaining joy, it is those real moments, tenderness, expression , our truth, love, and even resistance of the powers, of the pleasures, of the standards. of the securities, of the overwhelming traditions of lies that the vast majority of take to be real, such give a little to parts of your ego, take greatly from your soul, and/or dignity. Copyright © 2015 Anthony Cavuoti All Rights Reserved

What your really feel deep and sense down inside of you, is more real

Did you ever notice that what your really feel deep and sense down inside of you, is more real, is more powerful than your history, tendencies, ways and limitations, and when you fully aligned yourself with this and fully commit to your truth, the God within you, and the active God which this universe is part of manifests unseen power and beauty of you that you always into your life.

If you had a difficult birth, a difficult childhood, a turbulent adolescents.

If you had a difficult birth, a difficult childhood, a turbulent adolescents, a hard time during youth, if you had any of these all or of these, chances are you Journeyed from some far places, with a transformative message, an important message, and something is blocking you here, Your message is something that is necessary and vital And it upsets and threatens the established order. Copyright © 2015 Anthony Cavuoti All Rights Reserved

You are more much more and greater than any diagnosis

If you had a difficult childhood, chances are that you have a transformative message, that threatens the established order. You are more much more and greater than any diagnosis, that is just a Fashion trend that really promotes as it conceals political and financial investments. Copyright © 2015 Anthony Cavuoti All Rights Reserved

You do not have to review your life through the twisted and distorted lens of those that do not understand or get you

You do not have to review your life through the twisted and distorted lens of those that do not understand or get you, those that are unable or unwilling to get you or all the above. Someone from the Inquisition the Spanish Inquisition will never be able to understand an astrologers of today discover new plants and demention of the universe. Go on with your enlightenment and fulfillment and leave them behind. Copyright © 2015 Anthony Cavuoti All Rights Reserved Like · Comment · Share

The range of experience that we have are unique to us

The range of experience that we have are unique to us and far beyond the convention understanding of the structure of reality and conventionality as well as our understanding of mind, society, culture and the ordinary flow of things as well as time. Cultivate your special powers, attributes and abilities. Do not let others limited, conventional views of you and the world limit your will and confidence in making what what is reality to you. For that uniqueness which is you with its powers of expantion and synthesize dimensions is more powerful than all of the galaxies and it belongs to creation, though it comes through you, and only your uniqueness can fulfill as well as express it. Those that are conventional and adhered to the rules of some set status quo are trapped in the prison of so call normality. Be free and stay free! Copyright © 2015 Anthony Cavuoti All Rights Reserved

Lost for ever

To be addicted to false pleasure is a way to be lost for ever. Be with those that cherish your treasure. Not those refusing to face their false measure. Copyright © 2015 Anthony Cavuoti All Rights Reserved

Committed to the truth

The degree for which you are committed to the truth (of your childhood) is the degree for which the virtuous cycle will without do the negative cycle in your relationships and in your life. The commitment to really know your truth, over and over again, no matter what will guide you away from people using you for their twisted desires, for their need to keep you small so as to hide from their self betrayal and (the commitment to really know your truth will guide you) towards those that genuinely care for you and want to share their self fulfillment with you. Copyright © 2015 Anthony Cavuoti All Rights Reserved

Deceptive slogans

One of the most popular and deceptive slogans going around to day is, do you want to be right or do you want to be happy. It should say, do you want to know the truth, ( for that is the only way to real and lasting happiness) or do you want to remain deceived and continue pretending, so as to avoid your truth and any chance for real happiness and fulfillment. Copyright © 2014 Anthony Cavuoti All Rights Reserved

Life will show you the way

The door will open, not based on your personality, achievements, efforts, not based on any conventional measurement of intelligence, talent or so called adjustment, but based on your essence, how much of it you desire to experience. Beware, your inborn greatness is too often not received my your family, or the world and if it is too often the world is indifferent , and antagonistically hostel world that too often moves towards destroying more then embracing what is great. For most fear the real, their real self, and what awakens them to be what they truly are, they fear what releases them from the prison of their false self and the deceptions that it surrounds it self in. Leave the fools, go forwards into your joy anyways. Life will show you the way.

The risk of not being one self is too great

The risk of not being one self is too great. One must be what one is no matter the cost, no matter what the risk. The false layers fall away, let them fall, let your self be. When you had enough of the unsatisfying ways of adopting and just be, you know it, they ways will come, invisible, but never failing like the air in your lungs. Copyright © 2015 Anthony Cavuoti All Rights Reserved

Though we are plagued with faults

Though we are plagued with faults, emotional surges that derail us at times, we still find our center enough to change what we do not want in ways that bring us closer to those that we need in our life and distance our self from those that we unknowingly use to hide from our real self, with its many splendorous powers and desires.

The parents that realy did not want their children

The parents that realy did not want their children, but can not and will not admit this to them selves are responsible for the murder of their children souls, for they do not care about the child’s future self and the damage they do to them that will last them for the rest of their life. They are responsible for their own willful ignorance and indifference. Such slowly destroy their children every time they use, or mis use an so called legitimate excuses to release their pent-up frustrate and hostility towards the innocent child. As an adult they will internalize this insidious hostility and abuse and destroy themselves. Everyone will say what wonderful parents they had and what horrible human beings they are. We are responsible for challenging the ignorance we inherited from our family, from our culture, from our race from our time.

HOW I SEE THE WORLD TIMES

In some of my writings, I am speaking to the human potential, not as what we are instead what we potentially are, what is latent in us. I am not speaking to our envious nature. At other times I look life directly in the eyes and see us as we are, behind the pretense, the charades and the masks. This is the latter. I've noticed that when I go out with a black lady, say to the movie theater, some of the looks I get from some middle class couples, is just unbelievable. The contempt they cannot conceal is pathetic. But when I get these looks when I'm with my children I really have a low opinion of some of human nature. The pre-judgement which I receive from them is worse than a pre-judgement blind ignorance I received when I was a dyslexic child in narrow minded grammar school in the 60s and 70s with and bitter, ridge and narrowminded teachers. Of course, most of the time I ignore the ignorant bastards as I enjoy my time with my love ones. But I see, it I feel it. Like a stench,I cannot not notice it. I really appreciate the few, the very few that have a higher estimate of human nature and authentically live it.

WHERE IS YOUR ALLEGIANCE?

WHERE IS YOUR ALLEGIANCE? MOST PEOPLE NEVER QUESTION THE HYPOCRISY OF THEIR UPBRINGING. They think that they are adults but they’re only playing the roles assigned to them, roles they took to get their parents approval, and societies approval, roles they simply had to take out of fear, when they were small and vulnerable. But we know that our upbringing in our society has many blind spots where cruelty, indifference hides, very many, Just look at our indifference towards children, most parents still unquestionably believe yelling at their children is alright even into adulthood, then hitting the children is alright, that shaming their children is alright. It is not alright! Most Parents still think, “as long as I give my children food and shelter it is alright for me to make my demands on them, at the expense of their own personality ” to ignore, who they really are, and cut out the sides of the child’s personality that they do not find accepting. Most parents expect their children adult children to conform to their warped expectations. This form of perpetration is why others perpetrator abuses and indifference towards others, most of the time socially sanctioned other times not. You cannot buy enough of anything, you cannot consume enough of anything and you cannot be enough of anything to fill the void of childhood abuses and neglect we all suffered. By facing this suffering and feeling it, and refusing to perpetrate it on the vulnerable and the week and refusing to glorify it in the name of a proper upbringing, racial superiority or irrigants, we are taking the steps to enf this plague upon ourselves and the next-generation. Copyright © 2014 Anthony Cavuoti All Rights Reserved

We are all here to reveal this human potential

We are all here to reveal this human potential to one another in our own unique way, through others and our own very frustrating limitations and destructive false perceptions. What children need is enough space to find their own way. With real love, caring, wisdom of the parents constant reflective life as the port to come and go, they will discover the known an unknown of life, of them selves with all of its unique gifts and powers. Anthony Cavuoti. All Rights Reserved 20011

Little miracles,

Little miracles, big miracles are so very common, they really are. Life could fill you with so much anxiety one moment, later that day you see it was clearing you to wisdom, now you love much wiser, deeper, you love so much more alive.

Our attachment patterns our the shells for which we extend out to others, that we we emerge from, most get marooned in them to some extent, still most find a way to have fulfilling lives.

Simply striving

My unclear subjective emerging I of me is not looking for resolution, meaning, nirvana, heaven, paradise, or non existence, it is simply striving for fulfillment, expression, to fully experience the maximum intensity and radiance of its aliveness, each life is simply increasing the wave of my passions, of my emotions, of the tides of my rising being in which it reached the pinnacle of which I am right now. But this wave has become conscious of itself, and I was born trying to escape it, out run it, but by chance I am body surfing on it, trying not to be thrown off of it as I ride it, to where, I do not know. I sense it, I intuit it, I trust it, even in the storms, most of the time, enough of the time. It is not great acts of heroism, great works of achievement, security, victory and recognition, that resonate most real in us, that give us the most sustaining joy, the most real feelings of aliveness, it is those real moments, tenderness, expression , our truth, love, and even resistance of the powers, of the pleasures, of the standards, of the securities, of the overwhelming traditions of lies that the vast majority take to be real, such give a little to some parts of your ego while stealthily taking greatly from your soul, and/or dignity. Perhaps this is true once you get to a certain age. It is true for me.

You cannot share the truth, connect in a non-toxic bind, honestly exchange in a meaningful

You cannot share the truth, connect in a non-toxic bind, honestly exchange in a meaningful and sincere way with someone that has spent most of their life hiding from them selves and out of fear to avoid the shock and devastation of their emotional disfigurement which has become amplified by their lost long past decisions to identify with the exploiters and abusers in their life. They fallaciously or unconsciously believe that they have gained and profited from this orientation and will not change. As long as they are in denial of their truth and abuse they will continue to perpetrate the same way or in a similar way in which were perpetrated. They might pretend to be your friend, lover, greatest supporter to undermine you and stab you in the back, anything to keep their pain pushed down and out of consciousness. They are loyal to The perpetrators Not to them self and not to you. These are the greatest believers. The pillars of the communities. The most Christian of all Christian, the most caring of all caring, the most sound of all sound, intelligent of all intelligent and the most pathetic persons you will ever experience. Copyright © 2014 Anthony Cavuoti All Rights Reserved

You just follow the flow of fools passively going to oblivion.

You lack the courage to make it real, the uniqueness of your subjectivity. Your strength is using what is common to you and others to fit in. You think by being approved of, indifferent, righteous, seemingly firm and blindly loyal on the outside, while dying on the inside in the common ground game that seduces us and betrays us, you are being unique and daring and satisfied. You just follow the flow of fools passively going to oblivion.

Express your real self

Yes pleasure, joy and ecstasy, the springs of life, to live life, not to escape from life. You can't use one side of life to nullify another not even a delicious side or an exhilarating side. But it Sure feels good for a while. You have to take care of business, most of all your self, the real experience, needs, desires and longings of you behind the masks of the competent roles you play to the world that demands them of you. Real to yourself (And not overly adapting) that makes these little whiles happen and happen more intensely over and over again, as you express your real self by their exhilaration not using them to hide from your real self and life. Copyright © 2014 Anthony Cavuoti All Rights Reserved

Do not mistaken this force by the way it has been misused

We do not have to worship it, praise it, change or alter our behaviors to please it, to summons it, we do not have to adhere to a certain moral or ethical code to obtain it powers, its guiding, protecting, and reifying influences. Like electricity or radio waves, and like so many other forces that we have only recently discovered and are learning how to use, this force was always there, It is here now, we simply have to relate with this force in a manner that is attune to the many layers of our uniqueness and the circumstances that we are in and what we long to become and with those we love. Do not mistaken this force by the way it has been misused, twisted, exploited by the many ways mankind has disguised it. Individuals, civilizations and institutions have attempted to usurp it the in the forms of religious institutions, moral and cultural precepts, controlling philosophies and spiritual practices.

Being dyslexic I really experience what hypocrites people and institutions are

Being dyslexic I really experience what hypocrites people and institutions are. Right from the start I recalled vividly how I knew I should spell but was unable to. I tried but was baffled by the entangled puzzlement of such of a seemingly simple task that on some levels I knew I had the intelligence to master. I needed someone to help me, to make sense of this, someone that understood for I could not understand what was happening and why it was. The same was true for reading but even worse, for my difficulties in reading were just as profound but this vulnerability of my learning style was always made public in front of the class and the teachers had no shame in how they shamed me as well as embarrassed me by having me fail so crushingly so very often reading infrunt of the class, as an exercise and then later as a punishment. My kindergarten, first and second grade teachers where terrible sadistic old spinsters who's hostility and indifference knew no boundaries. Thrird forth and fifth grade teachers were not as bad but the worce of all was the Neo Nazi of a sixth-grade teacher Miss Schmidt. Copyright © 2014 Anthony Cavuoti All Rights Reserved

Real love is like moisture in the air

Real love is like moisture in the air, you cannot fake it, it is either there or it is not, and how much is there. Most families are a house on fire, there is no moisture, none. They are simply proficient at pretending there is. Copyright © 2012 Anthony Cavuoti All Rights Reserved

He answers “Lets just call it soul or right brain, we try to keep a balance, as your culture favors the left brain, linear control processes, we are more right brain intuitive. “ “Help me understand it more clearly” I ask The captain continues, “thinking and planning for us are faculties of the mind to assist us at times. Your culture is fixated on thinking and planning, you have come to identify with that part of your mind as who you are, you have created models of who you are, what the universe is and you are trapped in your however ingenious but limited perception. We experience the expanding, mystifying and clarifying nature of our self and creation.” I ask, “What do you use thinkig for.” He replies, “to wonder, as well as to assist us in concrete operations for a particular time and place” Copyright © 2014 Anthony Cavuoti All Rights Reserved He answers “Lets just call it soul or right brain, we try to keep a balance, as your culture favors the left brain, linear control processes, we are more right brain intuitive. “ “Help me understand it more clearly” I ask The captain continues, “thinking and planning for us are faculties of the mind to assist us at times. Your culture is fixated on thinking and planning, you have come to identify with that part of your mind as who you are, you have created models of who you are, what the universe is and you are trapped in your however ingenious but limited perception. We experience the expanding, mystifying and clarifying nature of our self and creation.” I ask, “What do you use thinkig for.” He replies, “to wonder, as well as to assist us in concrete operations for a particular time and place” Copyright © 2014 Anthony Cavuoti All Rights Reserved

It is not karma

We are in a state of misery, of anxiety, of constant struggle, and constantly being harassed by our fellow human beings, and the worries of our existence not because we are born defective, not because we are born in a state of sin, or because we have karma, bad karma. It is our up-bringings, our culture keeps us in a state of perpetual ignorance, it uses our sacred traditions for this such as religion, such sacred traditions both inspire us, guide us and keep us in a constant state of ignorance. The hypocrisy of this poisonous pedagogy damages the developing nervous system and brain of the child for life. The full force of the childs inner beauty, of the pent up life and love behind the floodgates of superstition, of repression will only be realized to the child once this truth is known, once this truth is felt, once this truth is experienced. Now as adults we unconsciously hide behind the cloak of the insidious methods of our unbringing and we perpetrate on one another through socially sanctioned molds of conduct the neglect, indifference and abuses that were done to us as infants, as children. As adults we blame it on God, on karma, on our genes, when in fact it is the ignorance of our civilization, of our society and its misuse and abuse of sacred traditions that give the adults in our vulnerable years permission to damage us, permission to neglect us, permission to abuse us, it is a socially sanctioned terrorism of the soul. Are awareness and our willingness to see it is the beginning of the ending of this ignorance. These superstitions that keep us ignorant. it is not God, it is not bad or past karma, it is the imprint of how we were treated as children. Copyright © 2014 Anthony Cavuoti All Rights Reserved

All great souls, minds thinkers and philosophers had to contend with such

There are always higher forces at work, guiding you, creating coincidences in your favor, and they are very forgiving for the frustrations, annoyances of how you may not always be graceful and sometimes a little harsh with those that are incompetent or on some level bullying you with their attitudes and or their little power. All great souls, minds thinkers and philosophers had to contend with such arrogance fools, angry fools, nervous fools, petty fools. Still we get back on course, we usually react to them when we are stressed or suffered a perfect storm of fools. We get back in synchronicity, moving up, and in getting our needs met better than ever. Taking care of yourself is your inoculation from toxic fools. Copyright © 2012 Anthony Cavuoti All Rights Reserved

Your past Karma

Your past Karma, that is your past states of mind, desires, inclination, attitudes, actions, and results they had on others narrow, shallow and and bigoted ego minds in a past life is what you are swimming are sinking in Emotionally. Your automatic thoughts reflects your pass imprint memory in this life And your imprint memory our results past karma, for you karma creates the conditions that allowed the emotional damage to you too happen and are not happen or both. How people's others from your past incarnation real minds, that is their Clear mind, (their depths, their soul, the side of their Being that was above) trauma, racism, prejudice, ignorance and bigotry of their time, That, that clarity That should've been the condition of your past life is what you are starting to fly in in this life, P

The more you know your childhood

The more you know your childhood, your early childhood, your infancy, what your mother experience while pregnant with you; what sort of environment surrounded you while you were developing in your mothers womb? What was her emotional state? What was your biological father's emotional state. What supports did she obtain from her environment, what were the stresses that impinge upon her and you. The more you know your past the more you are able know how and why you perceive the world as you do and why you react to the world as you do. You need to know this in order to escape the bondage of past and present toxic relationships and other forms of unfulfillment so as to move in to the direction solidifying your higher inclinations as well as your greater nature, as the the higher latent potential of you personality, mind and soul. Copyright © 2014 Anthony Cavuoti All Rights Reserved

Think of your your, best you peak experience and successes (draft)

Think of your , best you peak experience and successes, just do not think about them, feel that reexperience then. This unconscious conscious motivation and increase your drive In the present On which you need do what steps you need to take for your fulfillment right now. Just important it will incline you increase your will in confidence Not to take steps that will further harm, as being involved in a distractive relationship, overextending yourself emotionally in directions you should not be going right now.

Most people don't know them selves in this life (draft)

11 28 14 Most people don't know them selves in this life So knowing yourself in previous incarnations Will not be effective until you get a solid sense of yourself in this life, of course both work together but You have to be anchored in this incarnation this time and place before you can venture into the past without losing yourself. Your present personality and incarnation has to be in anchor enough to keep you grounded so you can return And profit from your inward Journey. Feelings and emotions, your inclinations you do not profit from and causing degrees of mental anguish, these are unresolved issues from past incarnations. Relationships that degrade you more than they fulfill you are unresolved issues from past and carnations. Of course they get consolidated and reenacted And significant relationships in your present life, all the while for your development There are opportunities to work it out, if you have a good child counselor someone could help you out as a child, A good school or therapist to help you as a teenager, as a young adult, most go to marriage counselors that is where the issues play themselves out Most prevalently in our culture. The trick is to indulge your higher inclinations More then your lower inclinations. Most people get over involved in their lower inclinations. Maroon there and this gets played out in dysfunctional relationships, addictions, unfulfilling jobs and careers Other patterns of negelct and destruction. You become overly involved with And or marry your neglect issues They played them sells out both go on each other They are the cause of this Fortunate drama trauma. Others just focus on their higher inclinations This leads to inflation grandiosity And shadow that is the neglected side plays itself out in relationships, impulses ventures and all sorts of emotional blindness That ultimate leads to overextending disappointment and failure. If you deal with the lessons you need to learn here Well asses friends need to cultivate, perfect and excel through, Voice to text draft

We find our way

As we commit to life we find our way in life, more and more we find our way in life, to life, We struggle through the collective established ways of life, what gets us through is more than our own will, it is the deeper, higher, more expansive mind coming through us, life coming through us. As we shed the false ways others put on us mostly in our developmental years, we shed the false ways of humanity, not only freeing our self from established deceptive patterns that once where thought necessary but now hinder, twist and distort, we free others caught in this poisonous bonding of darkness, out of deceptions that pose as necessity. Copyright © 2014 Anthony Cavuoti All Rights Reserved

Reincarnation became excepted more fully in the west just at the time where we could destroy our selves as a species

It is interesting that reincarnation became excepted more fully in the west just at the time where we could destroy our selves as a species making a return impossible in our human form. Would we have to start over in this world or another? One of the premises of reincarnation is based on not to radical of a change from one existence to the other, from One Life to the other. Could the anxiety And repulsion We experienced towards war be in part our species way of saving us from our destructive side?

Exit that we mistakenly got off of

For now this world is a bad exit that we mistakenly got off of , a demolition derby of our worse impulses and desires, it will change far into the future as we evolve. Get back in the highway fool. Copyright © 2014 Anthony Cavuoti All Rights Reserved

Maturity is so disproportionate

Maturity is so disproportionate, for the best results one has to learn to line their cultivated sides up to advance and refine their less developed sides instead of having it cover-up, which is what our society does too often. Copyright © 2014 Anthony Cavuoti All Rights Reserved

cellophane wrappers

Could the sterilization process of our modern system and the cellophane wrappers that we are all trapped in be part of the reason why as a society we seek so many illusions for an escape. Copyright © 2014 Anthony Cavuoti All Rights Reserved

We are all powerful descendants of eternity that are expressing it in an unique way.

We are all powerful descendants of eternity that are expressing it in an unique way. We come through one another in an infinite amount of finite ways, at times this stratum reifies and vivifies what we are, other times, it distorts what we are. Reflection allows us to be more discerning as to what we reveal as well as to whom. Since I am posting this on Facebook I am still learning.

You know you are more whole when you no longer identify

You know you are more whole when you no longer identify with how you react to predatorily deceivers that posed as someone you can trust, though they reflect a sign of our times. You are no longer embittered by such abuse of trust, you see that such act out how they were exploited and abuse as a child by sometimes high functioning in dysfunctional settings overly adoptive parents with superficial facade of caring that abused them. Copyright © 2014 Anthony Cavuoti All Rights Reserved

A great deal of what you see and believe in the ascend

A great deal of what you see and believe in the ascend is not what is real; you see the reality more fully in the resend. Learn from it and your ascends will be more sustaining and you descend will be more meaningful.

Be with someone that will incline you to live up to your human creative life affirming potentials

Be with someone that will incline you to live up to your human creative life affirming potentials, inside and out side of the known, not someone that will reenact your family's repressed issues. To do this you have to be willing to face the truth about your family, not idealize them.

Coexist for a purpose

There are both believers and nonbelievers. They coexist for a purpose. The believers get to cocky in their transcendence, the nonbelievers get to arrogant in their practicality. They keep one another in check and both are on their way to God in their own way.

If you live more in cyber space

If you live more in cyber space than you do in real space, you are and are leading the way for the modern slaves. Copyright © 2011 Anthony Cavuoti All Rights Reserved

We have all become slaves to mindless distractions

We have all become slaves to mindless distractions, Facebook, twitter, video games act…. are accelerating are loss of humanity but we are so count up in out doing one another on shallow levels, or gave up. We have replaced meaning with entertainment and loss the sour of our being.

Distortion field

To slow down, see what is going on, really going on, stop you trajectory from the pain, from the distortion field of your family, made of surface and underground hatred, jealousies, resentment, insecurities.

Father give me strength and wisdom so that I may love and care for the innocent, for the good of heart.

Father give me strength and wisdom so that I may love and care for the innocent, for the good of heart. To fulfill why you sent me. Thank you for this life, be with me father so that I may further expand your glory.

Sometimes we have to go beyond

Sometimes we have to go beyond the rules to make our culture and our society more of a just place, more humane, more compassionate and sophisticated, that is more aligned with what is noble in us as well as most eternal in us. Copyright © 2014 Anthony Cavuoti All Rights Reserved

Readying your self

Did you ever notice that when you are messing up, going down a path that is not right for you that you are very determine to go down, you get mad at the many strange coincidences that are getting in your way, harassing you, only looking back do you see that it was God calling to you. Rays of light through the clouds of desires in the storms of pain. Only by readying your self for the storm can you act on the signs, stop, next lesson, calm the storm. Copyright © 2014 Anthony Cavuoti All Rights Reserved

Set the conditions to reify

Our society is not a place where we collectively set the conditions to reify what is most real in us, most noble in us, eternal in us, no now it is a place that perverts us, twist us, distorts us. Then our society promises to fix us and to restore us. Who are you going to give your soul to, the government, the state, corporations, institutionalized ideologies, or are you going to struggle against this madness. Perhaps not giving in, being a positive deviant, struggling against this madness while making a living in it, transforming it more than it distorts you with means that are as noble as the ends, perhaps this is the only way to be real now, to live now, to be sane now, not just so called normal. To be sane in the face of overwhelming collative madness cloaked behind sanity. Copyright © 2014 Anthony Cavuoti All Rights Reserved

depths of our mind are more then mind, much more, the soul

The depths of our mind, unknown depths of our mind are more then mind, much more, the soul, which is part of the core of creation itself translates it’s mysteries through us, through our depths into our dreams, into conditions of our carnation. We come to our self more deeply, sublimely and profoundly as we summons the forces needed to overcome the familiar barriers to this realization. God works most profoundly through our soul, through our self, the ego has to line it self up. We must line all levels of our self up as best we can to fully realize the mysteries of life, our soul, of creation, of God. We belong to life; we expand our society as we vitalize our self, educate our self, know our self, be useful to your soul, to life, not a tool for the status quo. Let the dead bury the dead, you must go on with those willing to live, those who have there roots in life, the life of life, not the pseudo life of death nestled in status and security behind the walls of nominal psychology, morality and religion.