Invalidates all validation

My family invalidates all validation, sometimes I pretend it is not so, but all that I am, they invalidate, there is no real way, sane way, healthy way, fulfilling way, real way, to be in such hostility.

parts of you

It is a terrible yet wise thing to realizes,that parts of your personality you developed to torcher those that tortured you  and yourself.

My father has been dyeing on me for years even though he is healthy and alive.

My father has been dyeing on me for years even though he is healthy and alive. The more I see him, realizes him, the less he is. The past of what was, what was once the sun, is now smaller than a seed, not a muster seed, but poison ivory. I whish it was not but for my sake, I must face this truth. If we came from a place where there was more rage coming to you than love, more frustration than love, more ridicule than love, more lack of boundaries than love, more manipulation then love, more intimidation than love, more hitting than hugs, then you are better off by facing this terrible, this tearful reality go on in to love, to really love, not use fake public displays of love to cover your abuse. Face it, wrestle with it, change it, so as not to past this destructives hell to our children. 

Even if

Even if your family is pretending that they love you, in their own way they really do, they simply do not no how to love/ That does not mean being abused or used by their issues. If you want real love, you must see this, not pretend with pretend.

Good dreams, life of life.

Focus on your good dreams, the feelings, aliveness, the sublimeness, the beauty, love, meaning, wonder, such alive real dreams are life of life, they are you, more than you as well as a a head of you, making real your share of paradise now. Actively process bad feelings than move onto your good memories, experiences, feelings, they are the digestive enzymes of the negative as well. 

Believe in your self

The evil that you experience, feeling, how people react to you, their false impressions of you, estimates of you, responses to you is a reflection of their evil, prejudice, blindness, it is not a reflection of you, of your abilities, intent, it is not an impression of the impression you make, it is all a reflection of them or ninety percent of their limitations and ignorance. There beings, the 90 percept that have fake, superficial enlightenment, the 90 percept that are unconscious. Think back to grammar school or high school, believe in your self, be your self

All post before and after are fiction

All of this is fiction writing

All post before and after are fiction

We are becoming

We are becoming more of life, though it is far beyond are conscious ego's understanding, as well as the process of life; more of creation as well as the processes of creation, expanding as well as integrating both, Christ added the most, love, compassion, humanity. 

Each of us

Each of us is more than creation, we are embodying more of creations forces in us, creation in creation, vivifying, expending, without overly identifying with its intense passions, as well as expressing the aspects, forces of creation with others in ways empower.  We are, more then being the best, we are being here.   

dyslexics are 4G.

Metaphorically, when it comes to seeing colors, the vast majority of people are 3G, dyslexics are 4G. They can and do see a greater distinctions of colors and possible more colors, once again metaphorically.  When it comes to concepts dyslexics are 4G.    However when it comes to decoding and encoding, reading and writing, they are colorblind, 3G.   What are wonderful yet frustrating paradox?   

It does not have to be this way.

Every culture tries to control, manipulate, shame, dominate the other culture, the dominate cultures today where the so called inferior cultures of the past, the so called inferiors to day where the dominate cultures of the past in many or most cases, in their region or in their portion of their continent.  This is what individuals do to one another.  This is how we are habituated on many levels, but it does not have to be this way.  Believe in your self, face this tendency of humanity that we need to grow out of, defend your self from this, rise without putting others down.  Weed out dysfunctional patterns of relating, of being that you picked up  from your family. 

You have to see

You have to see the evil or maladaptive manipulative ways, or adoptive manipulative ways of others that use people as things, then you can protect your self and relate to them as well as God in a ways that do not poison you to their level. You can really do good when you see the evil in others, even if they do not see it in them selves, do not play their game; if you do, on the deepest levels they will despise you for being dump enough not to see through their games. If you play their game to get more game, you are, or will be just as lost as they in time.

Mot most

For some parents, not most, their is something deeply wrong with them, the only way to help them is for their adult children to get away, get away from them on as many levels as possible for very long time, for good is understandable. 

Lightening is quicker

As a therapist, this is what I see at times.  

Lightening is quicker than thunder, for many their weaknesses are exposed first, latent powers in them manifest afterwards in unconventional ways.   GOD help them if they are adopted with a narcissistic, self-adsorbed father with compulsion issues, denial, anger, rigidity.   Also God really be their for them with their borderline mother who can’t help but freely expose all of their children’s weaknesses publicly while being blind to their strengths, abusing them for not living up to the conventional culturally marketed definition of greatness that the queen demands.  

Beauty of Darkness

Beauty of Darkness 

Darkness is infinity, eternity, the source of all.   It gives birth to all life, to all forms, holds all, sustains all, we fear the primacy, as we feared the oceans, as we fear what is beyond the known, the more we grow, the more we see the more we will appreciate.

One dimension

One dimension of my book is we go from unconscious thoughts of God to conscious thoughts of God.  We go from an isolated unintentional drive to blindly connect with other thoughts of God in order to feed our hunger for power and bliss, we go from this too connecting to others intentionally, out of love, recognition, compassion, harmony, so that all might be more able to fully embody, express the one that is thinking us; in doing the latter we are simultaneously keeping our unique identity while becoming closer to and more like God, embodying God more, creation more, being more true to our origin, God, the source of all that is thinking us. 

rather be no more

People that experienced emotional mis-attunement as an infant, as children, rather be no more then be reborn into another existence where they could experience the same suffering again.  Such are the ones that believe in no God, no meaning to creation, and no existence past this life. But what they do with that pain will determine their next world, the ecology of their next carnation, did they inflict their pain on others, Hitler.  Or did they use their pain, their deep suffering to make the world more of a paradise on earth, a freer realm, a more just, more humane place, where one can experience, express a fuller range of being, a more creative life of depth, of harmony; so many more did this, we just never read about them, hear about them. 

Denial of the denial

An author I know wrote. R.M. 

With my family, they despise others, each other, mostly superficial love, much, much contempt, little love, expressed mostly indirectly through things, cleaning, food, buying things, many great things that can never make up for, or take the place of the lack of direct love, not being able to express it, at times uncertain if it is there.

 On deeper levels, much contempt, much contempt covered up with denial.  Denial of the denial. 

Not seeing it, the contempt they have for you, they have more contempt for you, abuse you more emotionally and have you feel it is your own issue, that the very real hostility and negative feelings you are picking up from them are your own derange feelings, emotions, weakness and defect of mind, of self, of soul.  

If you sacrifice much of yourself to be a hero for them, they might love you, respect you.  No, if you do they will pretended be impressed, but ninety percent of their words, their real feelings will despise you, They will make fun of you, constantly, loudly expose the weakness, weaknesses that were made and greatly amplified in your efforts to save them, to gain their respect, to end the abuse, to be loved.  

By saving yourself you save them, be the one to put love over all other desires, traditions, impulses, abusive outdated ways of keeping distance from one another in relating. 

mistake familiar for normal

If you were emotional and or sexually abused as a child you are vulnerable to others with similar or the same issues as your abuser. As adults we all have lapses of judgment, but are feelings protect us, they warn us that something is wrong, but if you were abused you mistake familiar for normal. 




Your inner normal needs for heeling from the abuse, from the betrayal lead you at best to a real healer, at worse to re-expereince the abuse, a vain attempt to be free from it, to gain mastery over it. 

Sometimes

Sometimes I just want to be, simply want share delight, free space, joy of naturally being, no **** heads in sight, just the pureness of life uninterrupted for a while by the bombardment of manipulative people pushing the **** of their or some companies' agenda on me. 

Each of us is an unique interpretation of creation

Each of us is an unique interpretation of the kaleidoscope hologram of the infinite singularity.   The patterns of how we collectively perceived and interacted created the gods of the pantheon; the singularity itself is monotheism.    Escaping from the bondage of our reality is what Buddha and Christ are about.   The outside tangible universe is just one of an endless expressions of this.  Civilizations and societies attempt to create a matrix in time where by we could co-exist in.    But each of us are also expanding the boundaries of this starting point, we call reality.   Though marvelous in many ways, our civilizations, cultures and all of its tools, reflect what is most common, basic in all of us as beings.   We took shelter in this here as well as in other realms, we are learning to except, appreciate  , tolerate and exist in shared harmony, without depreciating our vitality and loosing the living connection to our  depths.  

We have our own Sublime mind

We have our own Sublime mind, works of that part of us are deeper as well as above all that is known about you corporeally, and beyond everything what is acquired true, as well as real. e.g., your love is real, our deep desires are real

People are becomeing willing drones

Hate it when I ask for  a coffee at McDonalds and I am asked if I would like an apple pie. This is dehumanizing ignorance. "Would you like cheese on that burger" "No!!!!!  Would you like a kick in the ass with that question."

Sometimes I just want to be

Sometimes I just want to be, simply want share delight, free space, joy of naturally being, no shitheads in sight, just the pureness of life uninterrupted for a while by the bombardment of manipulative people pushing the shit of their or some companies' agenda on me.

darkness of the past

Most people were misunderstood as children as a result they had to deal with their parents darkness, neglect, as well as (intentional and or unintentional) tormenting ways to some degree. Our parent's ways, their hostility, their darkness has become part of us, for better and for worse. Children need plenty of love, attention, kindness, understanding, patients and time, if they do not get it they blame them selves for their parent's lack of involvement; if we were a child in such of a situation we would think, "I hate my self, I am the worse person in the world, I will destroy my self." Many children think this way in different forms and variations. For most adults such experiences and thoughts are the brick and mortar as well as the structure of their character and personality; much blindness of ambition runs over this high way of self, of ego, much productivity and much, much too much suffering.

Mind

The mind is made up by what it is exposed to from the environments from the prenatal development onwards, to its pattern imprint from prior existences, and the unique share of creation it is an expression of; all of this reflects a particular beings journey from unawareness into a shared awareness with others on various levels of becoming.

Family curse

One thing that I notice about my family, they just do not relate to one another in a supportive way. Life at times seems as if I am fighting one big curse, family curse. The curse that each family member keeps putting on each other; always in the subtext, I mean behind the relationships, I am thinking of my mother's side, everyone is stealthily at war with one another trying to make it seem as if it does not exist, it being an iceberg of hostility beneath the service, like the mafia. It goes on, hate is too strong of a word for it, bad will is closer, contempt hits another aspect, intolerant, over involved gets it some, all of this goes on underneath the too often volatile surface like lava, and like molten it services in a fury from time to time.

I wondered why they kept putting them selves through that, they might have been there for one another on the most superficial levels, but underneath the laughter, great food, stories, ultra-cleanliness there was much tunneling under the others souls. Burrowing into, hollowing each other souls without to much love, of any genuine support. But something was there. Still love in the very deep depths of the heart comes out through the stormy weather, an invisible force, like evaporation. I needed a hopeful ending, part of me knows that I will find a way, things are as they are, I can only change myself, how I relate.

New world

We are creation. There is no doubt that we are creation. Even more than creation, we are creation making creation even more real, in our own unique way. We are time and space, being and becoming. I am not certain as how to say this but we are, we are, we always were, we always will be. This life is only the beginning of the endlessness that we are.

To create, to bring the new world about, to embody it, to summons it, we must be it in everything we do. What is this new world, this new life, it is every one being sincere on every level and every one treating every one as if they are the greatest person ever, which we all are. This is the new world that we will now give to every one, we have to be it, we really have to be it, always, no faking, no hiding, no part of the way, be it, all out with everyone, even with those that are against this new world, just as the old cells of the chrysalis are against the new cells of the transformation to wings, that is why we must be it for those who will destroy it, misuse it, bend it for their own warped ends, for they will steal from us, use it on someone who will use it on their children. For the child this is the only human inter face their stunted parents relate to them through.

Some of the bad use it for bad, most use it for good, even when the bad use it for bad on their children, their children sense something behind it, a good in their world of misery beyond their parents; they sense that this did not originate from their mean parents and look for the origin of this liberating force that validates what they sense, and it becomes real for them, not another illusion that their abusive parents can knock or yell away in anger or buy away in lack of real effort.

In the movie the gray, men face death, some consciously believe in an after life, others do not, through the pain and trials some spontaneously come t

In the movie the gray, men face death, some consciously believe in an after life, others do not, through the pain and trials some spontaneously come to their own understanding or experience of death. A pack of wolves is pursuing them, almost for certain they are not going to make it, but still they go on trying as our human instincts compel us. This leads to some of the more basic ideas of the movie, Alfa, dominance, strength and courage, how we face death is intertwined with how we face life. On a more primal level, we create our own phoenix, our own rebirth by how we face death. Unconsciously we all have our own allegiance, understanding of life, death and the after life.

Life is alive

Life is alive, life has its source, its depths and heights that are far beyond anything that holds are identity weather or not our current identity is pleasant for us. Life brings into alignment what we desire, what we imagine, what is dear to us, what we yearn for, what we give energy to, what we want; one of the ways to live a more fulfilling life is to examine your emotions, feelings, beliefs about your self, about life, about the world, society, your past, about love, what love is, what love is not, your beliefs about your beliefs.

As you do this reflection you also weed out distorted false believes, imprints, and patterns that were put into you before you had a chance to consciously except them or reject them; life will manifest what you do not want, what you do not desire along with what you do, because both are in you. However your intent, and what you give a sustained conscious effort to while holding onto your depths while wisely discerning your daily life and acting on the miracles that most see as liabilities, or something too great for them, or delusions, is what makes the difference, appreciating others works is needed as well, all great people expanded on others works, others feelings (This is where spirit, emotions, feelings, and practical reality intersect and expand)
Also by examining painful feelings, memories and unresolved issues of your past you are not increasing the pain or negativity of the past energy, you are redirecting this stuck and dormant energy, you are releasing it, freeing it, the life, the energy is no longer or less marooned in the past which is always alive with unlived life, unexpressed life. You are freeing your self from your past by examining the energy, the sources of your pain. To use a metaphor, your reception will not weekend, if you get rid of your bad appts on your device or if you update appts that are no longer useful to you as they currently are. To put it a different way, you are giving energy to your life if it is mostly in the spirit of freeing your self from unfulfilling, unloving and unproductive ways of being. ( In this struggle, in this spirit of expanding, integrating, and purifying your self you are helping others as well,) If the positive manifest more quickly than the negative you are going forwards, practice giving energy to what you want and freeing your self from what you have out grown.

No matter what your obligations are or what is pressing, no matter what needs to be done, no matter what is pressing you, demanding your attention, ( keeping obligations to children is an exception for this decree not an excuse) give your creativity, time and energy to what you want, to those things you want most, believe in them see them; see what feelings friends, family and others bring up in you, see them, if they hinder you, know their limits, except them where they are at, do not try to make them fit what you imagined them to be, your efforts are better spent finding as well as cultivating your own supports, people that are able as well as receptive to assist you in manifesting your depths, your dreams, people that you stand on deeper intrinsic common ground with and are reaching for similar heights.

Streak across time

How to describe it, our existence is but a streak across time, however our life does not end, nor does it start with the particular ego you are presently acting in. Our many existences are but a streak across history. Our soul here is like a whale, swimming across the see of time, yet going to the depths of infinity, when it surfaces for air, there is your self, it goes down, that ego dies, yet you still are just as much, perhaps more, it comes up you are born again. The longitude and latitude slightly change, all is the same, all is different. This streak does not begin with this universe, nor does it end with it.

Fed up with the attitude of a system of indifference

People are fed up with the attitude of a system of indifference that uses them as objects to be manipulated to maintain a statusquo that intimidates and coerces people to serve its one-sided ends. People went along with it to maintain their life, their relationships, their families, in short, to adopt, they knew that it was unjust as well as out of touch, but it was sold as the best of all inperfect systems. But now the huberous of those entrusted to control the system is too much too bare and the citizens humanity is not being fulfill, and their human dignity is viewed as a histrionic element. So now we see our financial and political leaders in the light of their own greed that has broken the system, as the spoiled narcissist of the wealthy, and cunning who put their own life stile above the country and people that made their position possible. People want their humanity and dignity back as well as their life and are now willing to expose the hypocrisy of the con-artist.

As you go through life.

As you go through life you create a spirit, a force of attraction, as an adult a great deal of what you do in the process of individuation (and in therapy) is weed out the bad programming, the no longer useful attractor patterns of your past, while at the same time you expand on the attractor patterns that are beneficial for your expansion and for the emergence as well as the cultivation of latent forces in you, the more actively you engage in this, the more you make a path of least resistance for others, that is you positively influence others while you ad to the culture. The best results of this is that you give the children of your and future generations a better start, they go through life more free from outdated and destructive forces and more able to recognize as well as express the life affirming forces in themselves.

We all are an unique interpretation, and embodiment of creation, of God, we increase, expand, deepen and reify our depths, as well as all of creation

We all are an unique interpretation, and embodiment of creation, of God, we increase, expand, deepen and reify our depths, as well as all of creation in moments when we love sincerely, when we are true to our core. We are constantly creating, individually and collectively a matrix of experiences that more fully accommodate, reflect our innermost longings, desires and perceptions.

They never were.

If some one does not respect you, does not or can not appreciate your soul, your depths your feelings, emotions, ideas, if all they want to do is sell you something and when you do not play along they turn on you, then the hell with them, go on with your life, they never were, really they never were. I am just not saying it, they never were. Though they appeared to be a parent, spouse, lover, friend, they were an illusion, at best they were a bad dream that taught you to be more honest with your self, to respect cherish and appreciate your depths and others as multilayered beings that have an inner life.

Each of us is creation. Each of us is a core of creation.

Each of us is creation. Each of us is a core of creation, in our center, in the core of our center we are perfect, at peace, yet very dynamic, our centers interact with others centers in perfect harmony, in a state of fluid living dynamic where exchange is vitalizing and effortless, yet these processes are unconscious, without intent, without volition.

Just before we die, we realized that we are more than are bodies, our form here, our life, our existence is our intent, as well as the sum total of our intents, in both voltage and Amps. The degree for which our intent matches our core is the degree for which we have continuity in the next stage of our collective strivings.

We are not born to die. We are born to be born.

Some of us were not born to die, it is not that some are ordain, predestined, some existed before, some came into existence with a message, they were not born to die, but born for some continuity, to go on, some part transfigurates, some aspects are the same, more perfected but the same..

To a dear friend

One thing I learned in my life is that miracles happen for those who believe, who have patience, learn who they are, and see the blessing in stresses, and are generous with their joy. (How their so called weaknesses guide them, as well as add to their spiritual algorithm more complexities and more powers to assist others as well as creation.

We are under the impression that strain and pushing are the way and or to get into seemingly impossible situations which force us to summons the strength to live, to get past, the obstacles, to survive. This was perhaps how we obtain our tools in the past, our religions, spiritual practices and cultural traditions.

There is another way, we are in a blossomed portion of the tree of life. Most of what is real we do not perceive with our senses. Imagination is our guiding force. It both creates the reality of our life and puts us in it. It is time to imagine other worlds for our selves and together, more loving, exciting, adventurous, passionate worlds, realms, existences.We are gathering more of our imagination, more insight, more passion, more will, more spirit of creation itself. In each life, here, as well as to come we are living out more of creation together.

Away from confusion

As you see, we never die. Change dimension, big transition, faster than prenatal unconscious aware instant. There you are, nice review, what you do, insight for you, light forever, yet beginning anew.

Great love, appreciation, intense feelings, powerful sublime emotion. I do not believe I am the best this time. I will love very strong. This time more discernment, incarnate into less anxiety.

Do not get caught up in the allusions stay aware.
Be in the eternal instant, be with those on your level, stay true to your center, that is how you enter, this keeps you away from confusion.

What great and brave beings we are

What great and brave beings we are, we give of our selves to people, to humans as infants, as children, to be born from them, into their care, we allow our selves to be so vulnerable, so much trust in those who them selves are in flux, in a world in flux. Did some of us who once made it out of here simply extend out too far once it was over, once we were liberated and lost our selves, became unconscious again in desires that embodied us once more? Do these desires wrap them selves around another desire, a desire for a fuller expression of being, of ones innermost depths, so that we can give and receive such currants of depths with other beings; of imagining, of further imagining, of creating the conditions for such depths of being to be manifest, expressed, shared, harmonized, synthesized, with continuity, yet over and over again each time a little different, each time a little more fulfilling. By imagining this to come about, by making this come about, we come about. We transfigurate creation, each other as well as our selves.

Genesis of its self

The universe, creation is full of genesis of its self. The infinite comes into itself a new through the finite. Each finite expands the infinite, one dimension of this expansion here is that the infinite becomes more conscious. In general life cycles of beings are patterns of the collective unfolding. Once a particular type of being reaches its limits, say human, death comes in and it begins again. ) We all come from creation from source, from the infinite , when we come into being from this, what is loved, awakened nurtured in the finite becomes, expands, alters the reality, the stratum, the world it is born into. As we give to life that is born here anew into creation, so it is.

As you give as adults,you create the force you will die into, the bardo, and the new realm you will be in, or the new life you will be born into.

As you know we are time, eternity as well as infinity. We are creation, we are being, existence, existence is shared being with other beings, with other becomings. We are deepening and widening are experience of creation, of our self, of one another. We are becoming more able to express creation in our own unique way as well as more profoundly appreciate being awakened to our selves and creations living depths by other beings expressions of creation.

What you hold in the center of your being, with intent, with a desire to make real, with a conscious effort to make real becomes real. It is real, it always has been real. It is finding the right time of place to manifest through.
I am a uniqueness becoming more awakened, more able to experience, express and manifest life, love, abundance, wisdom, creation, harmony great wealth and prosperity. My pain teaches me to be more empathic with other beings, to learn to assist them in over coming obstacles and perceived limitations. Assist others to find love, joy and abundance in their infinite power of creation.

I teach others to obviate all of life's needless, suffering, pain, conflicts and distractions, I teach others to live a life of joy, love, harmony and abundance.

draft

As we are being raised, as our minds, brains, and bodies are being formed, those who have the most influence on us are being stressed on many levels. These external stresses become internalized into our neurological and psychological formation. Through out our formation or development these stresses run interference in us. (as we become mature, processes of the mind generally become less automatic, on the other hand the I that experiences life, this sense of self becomes more intentional.)

We human beings pick up on language without much if any effort. We perpetuate all of the syntactic evolutions of the particular language we inherited in our own unique way with all of its strengths and limitation. The undercurrent to all the above is that without knowing it we carry out a false agenda, we become Trojan horses with out knowing it. Behind our sense of self, our identity, our goals, our beliefs, our values, our intentions, what we hold to be sacred and true, behind all of this we are unconsciously carrying out our parents, our culture's our race's, and our economic class immaturities, prejudices, hatreds) in deference to our own temperament and person attributes,

There is a unspoken taboo about self awareness, of being your own self agent, of being centered enough, calm enough, strong enough, deep enough, intentional enough to form a sense of self that reflects your own intrinsic reality and of expressing, of experiencing your unique sense of self, your unique personal reality.

Infants of being.

What great and brave beings we are, we give of our selves to others as infants, as children, to be born from them, into their care, we allow our selves to be so vulnerable, so much trust in those who them selves are in flux, in a world in flux. Did some of us who once made it out of here simply extend out too far once it was over, once we were liberated and lost our selves, became unconscious again in desires that embodied us once more? Do these desires wrap them selves around another desire, a desire for a fuller expression of being, of ones innermost depths, so that we can give and receive such currants of depths with other beings; of imagining, of further imagining, of creating the conditions for such depths of being to be manifest, expressed, shared, harmonized, synthesized, with continuity, yet over and over again each time a little different, each time a little more fulfilling. By imagining this to come about, by making this come about, we come about. We transfigurate creation, each other as well as our selves.

We help others save them selves from them selves. Most people were misunderstood as children as a result they had to deal with their parents darkne

We help others save them selves from them selves. Most people were misunderstood as children as a result they had to deal with their parents darkness, neglect, as well as (intentional and or unintentional) tormenting ways to some degree. Our parent's ways, their hostility, their darkness has become part of us, for better and for worse. Children need plenty of love, attention, kindness, understanding, patients and time, if they do not get it they blame them selves for their parent's lack of involvement; if we were a child in such of a situation we would think, "I hate my self, I am the worse person in the world, I will destroy my self." Many children think this way in different forms and variations. For most adults such experiences and thoughts are the brick and mortar as well as the structure of their character and personality; much fake good runs over this high way of self, of ego, much false productivity and much, much to much suffering.
Get rid of the vampires and see how you will thrive. Anthony Cavuoti