Such as Winston Churchill

Such as Winston Churchill's father, my father detested me at times, other times he really loved me.  I did not know how to make sense of this strange rhythm.  The only thing that I could imagine is that if I am great, not only would he love me, but I could save him from his destructiveness, his recklessness that I was so painfully aware of as a child. The older I became the more he detested me for me.  Being dyslexic I did not received any validation from school.  Just more conformation that there was something deeply wronged with me.   In my writings I found refuge, solace, strength, my voice.  In mid to late sixties and early seventies rock music I found parts of my self, all too much of the wild side.  The blatant hypocrisy of the adults turned me off to church. Once I had access to books on tape I was able to see more clearly my reflection in the works of literature. To this day such attitudes that where born of my past still affect me.   Besides being with my children I feel my best while helping others that are going through similar ordeals.