How I feel is how I feel

How I feel is how I feel, if it is too intense for some, they are not for me, I rather die at times then live half a live. I will not be violent, I never was, from what I seen it is a lower level that perpetuates one to continually be maroon on lower levels, but the feelings of intensity are real, just as real as the spiritual, except at times they are faster.  Wisdom tells me, as I tell others to wait, to be patient, life will always give you a way to express your self in a manner whereby you will be true to your self as well as to the deeper depths of your self and all of humanity, we are all part of the evolution, the awakening of humanity, the furnaces, the jets, the rockets of your soul, do not let them explode, use them, guide them to push your cause forwards, Christ, Martin Luther king, Winston Churchill, Kennedy, Albert Einstein and many others did it, so can, so will you. 

Invalidates all validation

My family invalidates all validation, sometimes I pretend it is not so, but all that I am, they invalidate, there is no real way, sane way, healthy way, fulfilling way, real way, to be in such hostility.

parts of you

It is a terrible yet wise thing to realizes,that parts of your personality you developed to torcher those that tortured you  and yourself.

My father has been dyeing on me for years even though he is healthy and alive.

My father has been dyeing on me for years even though he is healthy and alive. The more I see him, realizes him, the less he is. The past of what was, what was once the sun, is now smaller than a seed, not a muster seed, but poison ivory. I whish it was not but for my sake, I must face this truth. If we came from a place where there was more rage coming to you than love, more frustration than love, more ridicule than love, more lack of boundaries than love, more manipulation then love, more intimidation than love, more hitting than hugs, then you are better off by facing this terrible, this tearful reality go on in to love, to really love, not use fake public displays of love to cover your abuse. Face it, wrestle with it, change it, so as not to past this destructives hell to our children. 

Even if

Even if your family is pretending that they love you, in their own way they really do, they simply do not no how to love/ That does not mean being abused or used by their issues. If you want real love, you must see this, not pretend with pretend.

Good dreams, life of life.

Focus on your good dreams, the feelings, aliveness, the sublimeness, the beauty, love, meaning, wonder, such alive real dreams are life of life, they are you, more than you as well as a a head of you, making real your share of paradise now. Actively process bad feelings than move onto your good memories, experiences, feelings, they are the digestive enzymes of the negative as well. 

Believe in your self

The evil that you experience, feeling, how people react to you, their false impressions of you, estimates of you, responses to you is a reflection of their evil, prejudice, blindness, it is not a reflection of you, of your abilities, intent, it is not an impression of the impression you make, it is all a reflection of them or ninety percent of their limitations and ignorance. There beings, the 90 percept that have fake, superficial enlightenment, the 90 percept that are unconscious. Think back to grammar school or high school, believe in your self, be your self

All post before and after are fiction

All of this is fiction writing

All post before and after are fiction

We are becoming

We are becoming more of life, though it is far beyond are conscious ego's understanding, as well as the process of life; more of creation as well as the processes of creation, expanding as well as integrating both, Christ added the most, love, compassion, humanity. 

Each of us

Each of us is more than creation, we are embodying more of creations forces in us, creation in creation, vivifying, expending, without overly identifying with its intense passions, as well as expressing the aspects, forces of creation with others in ways empower.  We are, more then being the best, we are being here.   

dyslexics are 4G.

Metaphorically, when it comes to seeing colors, the vast majority of people are 3G, dyslexics are 4G. They can and do see a greater distinctions of colors and possible more colors, once again metaphorically.  When it comes to concepts dyslexics are 4G.    However when it comes to decoding and encoding, reading and writing, they are colorblind, 3G.   What are wonderful yet frustrating paradox?